Question regarding emotions

[Unwrapped]

I worry a lot, it’s in my nature. I dedicated a long time ago but strayed away but am back now, but for as long as I can remember after learning the truth I get this feeling in my chest whenever I read about Satan trying to study and whatnot. I’m not sure if it’s love, fear or what, but I’m curious if there may be something causing this, and any answers would be greatly appreciated. And it’s not like I want these emotions to happen, they just do, I was raised in a christian household but never went to church, could that be a part of it? I’ve only been back for a little, I’m on the 6th day of the 40 day program and since I started things have gotten better, and my negativity has been released, I still suck at actually SEEING energies though, but I’ll get better. Either way I looked but couldn’t find much about this feeling so I figured I’d ask and provide details about myself.

 

[Aquarius]

This is really something you have to figure out yourself, we can’t decipher your feelings.
Also, you’re at day 6th of the program, it’s normal for you not to be able to do stuff perfectly.

 

[Gearshift]

If you pay attention to text on mindfulness(basically another way of saying void). Actually when reading on void properly reading up on some mindfulness wouldn't hurt as void meditation page doesn't go really far in depth with breath awareness and some intrinsic information on a normal flow of ranging from silent mind to active mind situations. It might have a lot of buddhistic spiel and other forms of development over the ages. But it DOES help, it sounds to me like your the type that benefits. Some people do it just for helping themselves and end up making worse. SOMETIMES meditation makes it worse or reach a point of emotional instability. IT CAN HAPPEN but take it easy and keep going your cleaning the house so to speak.

Rumination is the act of worrying a lot. If you delve into mindfulness/void you'll realize it'll diminish. Rumination is a key indicator of health problems not just mental but physical. Remember in SOME cases the mind can push so much force you literally feel like there is a problem. So for some people they are kinda exacerbating situations.

Aside from mindfulness and meditation you can also focus on exercise and realistic approaches. Like it's been said sometimes you gotta tune off the spiritual and focus on other aspects of life.

Seeing is something that occurs over time don't worry just imagine as best as possible. Like HP Shannon said "Just do your best, don't beat yourself up".