Problems meditating

[willemb14]

Hello,
It has been about a year since i found out about spiritual satanism (And yes i dedicated myself to Satan) but i have big problem or obstacle that cant overcome. every time when i start meditating or start doing yoga..... something inside of me says to stop doing it and makes sure that it feels wrong and tiring to do. this happens after a little while of doing meditations or yoga 1 to 3 weeks of doing it, even if i was really motivated to do it lets say today i could wake up tomorrow and i couldn't get myself to do any meditations or yoga and i don't know why this happens.
Its not like i hear a voice that tells me to stop but its a strong feeling that makes me want to avoid it like its the plague. this happend to me a couple of times in the past year and every time when it happens i will stop doing any meditations or yoga its even hard for a while to get into contact with satanism at all. because of this i didn't make much progress spiritually. 
i had a burnout/depression when i started with satanism and i still have it but not nearly as bad as a year ago. maybe this has something to do with it but i don't know if that is the only reason.
so what i want to ask.. do you guys maybe have some tips for me? like is it a wise decision to try and make contact with my guardian demon(ess)? tough it might be hard to make contact because i'm spiritually not that strong/far...
Thank you for your time and help.Hail Satan

 

[dylanbartone]

Even though u may not hear the voice of ur guardian demon they are still their. Do ur routines of raising ur vibration regardless of that 'dnt do it feeling'( ik exactly what u mean. I get tht same suppression feeling when I'm focused on advancement)WILL POWER IS KEY!!!!

once u can feel the increase in ur vibration, go about the best way u see fit to remove wat causes tht negative feeling. Ask ur demon for help removing the entity(s) that dnt want u advancing.

Do this everyday(multiple times if need be) and clean ur aura and set a protection to keep them out( I feel like I read from one of our brother/sisters or it was JoS(need to stop pot its fkn my memory of small details @-@) that doing AoP to specifically keep the enemy from reattaching after its gone is smart. I could be tripping tho SOMEBODY pls correct me if I'm wrong lol).

 

[vahswplhvsc4357o4irdmlulgj4pifhsbojb2jzg]

Do a banishing ritual: http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... shing.html

Remember that EVERYONE starts out differently.

 

[vahswplhvsc4357o4irdmlulgj4pifhsbojb2jzg]

@dylanbartone: It's true, stop smoking, do pineal gland meditation.