Tomorrow, 30 April, on Beltane's Eve, I will be one year since I am a Spiritual Satanist and I am on the side of life, nature and basically on the side of Satan. One year since I learned the truth, one year since I am free and growing my powers and abilities.
Now that I think back to life before the dedication, well, I feel that I could no longer live as I lived then. It is a blessing to have the privilege of moving forward on this path, to be able to be different and feel the love, care and energy of the Gods. My heartfelt thanks to all the Gods, especially my Guardian Demon Seth, Satan and Thoth for their guidance. Without them I would be either dead or worse off than you could imagine.
I remember with pleasure the moment I learned who my Guardian Demon was and was able to communicate with him for the first time. It was the night of Lammas, I was tired after spending hours in the forest and had fallen asleep. At one point, in my dream Seth appears next to Satan to talk to me. They just told me to stay on this path, grow and develop and trust them. After what I heard I asked Seth if he is my Guardian Demon and then he approaches me, hugs me and the dream ends.
I felt indescribably frustrated that it was over.
The next few weeks after Lammas were wonderful, more wonderful than what was to come. I was communicating almost daily with Seth and Satan and my meditations were going perfectly, if one were to overlook my recklessness in overdoing it and getting knocked down. I couldn't get out of bed half the day and was shaking like I was electrocuted. I learned my lesson not to force my soul, in a really unpleasant way.
Another superb moment was Samhain, when I spent the whole night in the forest, meditating quite a lot. That evening I experienced my first astral projection. I went out into the astral ( briefly unfortunately ) and was able to enjoy the incredible scenery. I was lucky that Satan made sure everything went well, because I couldn't ( or didn't know ) to go back into the body.
Months passed and I kept evolving. I got to a point I never thought I would get to. My spells were manifesting faster than I expected, my prosperity and well-being increased, my soul, body and mind were stronger i than ever and my life became very happy. I would never have reached the level I am at now without JoS, the Gods and this wonderful nature.
I also want to thank all of you for being patient with me, helping me and guiding me on my path. Special thanks to HP. Zevios Metathronos, Lydia, Blitzkreig, Stormblood, Naked Pluto and of course High Priestess Pythia.
I wish you all the best of luck and as much development as possible. Happy Beltane!
HAIL ZEUS!
Hail Seth!