newbie with a question

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If this is my second post I apologize I am having trouble with my connection.I have been studying kabalistic magic for three years.I am 42.Kabalahistic magic is all i could find at the time.My journey began with the question who is god.The things I had been taught never made since to me.Recently I began pushing harder,seeking the truth.In november I was led to spiritual Satanism.I dedicated my soul to father Satan.I know none of you are surprised,but if someone would have told me three years ago I was going to dedicate my soul to Satan.I just had no idea.I had been indoctrinated into the lies.But I have never been so excited.And peaceful.I have absolutely no one to confide in so I apologize if I am rambling.I immediately began the power meditations.When I meditate I can feel the present of the Gods.But when I meditate get tremendously hot.Is this the presence of the Gods or something else?I cannot express the joy of finally being home.HAIL SATAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!