Greetings,
So I did the dedication ritual, which was a mess... I was so excited I screwed up things like I only had a dull knife, no needle or anything, so I was unable to get much blood with the dry pen - which was dry for weeks, but now in the middle it started to write in blue... Anyway, I read that the ritual is only a formality, what matters are my intentions. Even though little blood was made it to the paper, I feel it was successful, I feel much better than before, and everyday I notice little signs which shows that my dedication was accepted.
Well, here I was, taking my first steps on the path, but don't really know how to start at all. All I knew that I should start meditating everyday, so I did. But I don't know if I am doing things right, so I asked Father Satan for guidance, to send me a Demon to show the path.
As I am a newcomer to spiritual practices, I only had to resort to my intentions about finding my guardian. The way I did that I read the whole list on the site, and one name catched my eye. In fact I encountered that name even the first time I browsed the site: Gremory. It may be silly, but even our astrological signs are compatible (I am a Taurus and her position is Capricorn). I am usually much more myself during the night, I like the night more than the day, and she is a night Demon.
After these today I went to meditate, and after I felt I am in trance (or I guess so, I felt my hands about 3 times bigger than usual - so I guess it means that), I vibrated her name about 20-30 times, haven't counted it. Then asked her: "Gremory if you are my guardian Demon, please send me a sign". At that instant, a sweat drop made its way from the top to the bottom of my left arm. I took that as her answer and thanked her.
The things is that I am unable to talk about anyone about these things, but I feel the need. Thats why I am posting this here. Anyway, any comments and help about your newbie experiences are appreciated, it would help me a lot.
So I did the dedication ritual, which was a mess... I was so excited I screwed up things like I only had a dull knife, no needle or anything, so I was unable to get much blood with the dry pen - which was dry for weeks, but now in the middle it started to write in blue... Anyway, I read that the ritual is only a formality, what matters are my intentions. Even though little blood was made it to the paper, I feel it was successful, I feel much better than before, and everyday I notice little signs which shows that my dedication was accepted.
Well, here I was, taking my first steps on the path, but don't really know how to start at all. All I knew that I should start meditating everyday, so I did. But I don't know if I am doing things right, so I asked Father Satan for guidance, to send me a Demon to show the path.
As I am a newcomer to spiritual practices, I only had to resort to my intentions about finding my guardian. The way I did that I read the whole list on the site, and one name catched my eye. In fact I encountered that name even the first time I browsed the site: Gremory. It may be silly, but even our astrological signs are compatible (I am a Taurus and her position is Capricorn). I am usually much more myself during the night, I like the night more than the day, and she is a night Demon.
After these today I went to meditate, and after I felt I am in trance (or I guess so, I felt my hands about 3 times bigger than usual - so I guess it means that), I vibrated her name about 20-30 times, haven't counted it. Then asked her: "Gremory if you are my guardian Demon, please send me a sign". At that instant, a sweat drop made its way from the top to the bottom of my left arm. I took that as her answer and thanked her.
The things is that I am unable to talk about anyone about these things, but I feel the need. Thats why I am posting this here. Anyway, any comments and help about your newbie experiences are appreciated, it would help me a lot.
