sleepyscorpion
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I looked into spiritual satanism about a year ago and felt that was where I was supposed to be. I felt confident that I did the dedication ritual, however due to an unexpected illness contracted by my dad I was forced to get a second full-time job to support my family. During this time I had no time to properly thank Father for what he had given me and to ask him to help my own earthy father in whatever way he deemed appropriate. Over the year this was going on, I feel that my faith had begun to stagnate and I believe that I even began to regress into my old ways.
I have prayed to Father begging, not for forgiveness, but for a chance to redeem myself. I want to perform a formal ritual to make my request more formal, but I don't want to engage in this if there is even the slightest chance that there may be some lingering attachment to the christian "god" or any other affiliate.
I have read, again, nearly all of the articles on exposing christianity, but my main question is how will I know if I still have any subconscious link to my old faith, and how will I truly know when it's no longer there?
I have prayed to Father begging, not for forgiveness, but for a chance to redeem myself. I want to perform a formal ritual to make my request more formal, but I don't want to engage in this if there is even the slightest chance that there may be some lingering attachment to the christian "god" or any other affiliate.
I have read, again, nearly all of the articles on exposing christianity, but my main question is how will I know if I still have any subconscious link to my old faith, and how will I truly know when it's no longer there?