new and unsure.

[emeraldgreen1056]

I just started this group and am a little apprehensive , this would be the point where my family would say im going down the tubes. Satan was never welcome in our household and i never questioned it, until i fuinally moved away and saw myself more clearly. I am a little lost and do not know many things. This ignorence weakens and angers me greatly. I am 17 and i feel this is the point in my life where i need to find a path for myself and in my confusion i can find nothing. i have gifts, can feel them...when i say this to my family they accept it but still i do not get the guidence i look for. i was never fully explained what was so wrong with Satan..just to stay away. But why? Where is the deep wrongness they talked about? i desperatly would like to know more; half of what i want to know is so jumbled in my swirling mass of a mind i could not even say. I dont know if right now i am sliding down a slippery slope...but how could it be something awful it it helps me improve myself and finally become the person i've been aching to be as long as i can remmeber. i hope this isn't to foolish or pointless.