NEEEEEEEEEEEED HEEELP!!!

[caleb.gruen]

Okay, my family is very seriously christian and ever since i was very very little, when i heard a story of satan, first time i heard bout him i had this feeling i've never had before. Don't get the imoression that it was bad because it's actually the best feeling i've ever had and I still get it everytime i hear somethin bout satan or demons or just anything satanic i get this feeling. It's like a feeling of a mix of fire and a shocking sensation at the same time. The problem is that my parent(My dad's side of the family)try to take to church and i tell them church is full of lies and they try to brain wash us with their anti-satanic attitudes. But if i tell my family, I will be disowned so I don't knoiw what to do and I don't know how to get the supplies for any of the rituals. I've physically, spiritually, and mentally accepted satan as my true god and father. I've even written some thoughts on a clean piece of paper and threw it into a candle with a small dot of blood dripped on it, signed with my name. Now the candle was green but that's all I could take from my mom, since we have a don't ask don't tell relationship. Do you think satan accepts me even though it is a very slim chance that i can do any of the rituals untill I'm out of the house (18 yrs old)? I've tried all I could. Please, any advice?

 

[caleb.gruen]

Okay, my family is very seriously christian and ever since i was very very little, when i heard a story of satan, first time i heard bout him i had this feeling i've never had before. Don't get the imoression that it was bad because it's actually the best feeling i've ever had and I still get it everytime i hear somethin bout satan or demons or just anything satanic i get this feeling. It's like a feeling of a mix of fire and a shocking sensation at the same time. The problem is that my parent(My dad's side of the family)try to take to church and i tell them church is full of lies and they try to brain wash us with their anti-satanic attitudes. But if i tell my family, I will be disowned so I don't knoiw what to do and I don't know how to get the supplies for any of the rituals. I've physically, spiritually, and mentally accepted satan as my true god and father. I've even written some thoughts on a clean piece of paper and threw it into a candle with a small dot of blood dripped on it, signed with my name. Now the candle was green but that's all I could take from my mom, since we have a don't ask don't tell relationship. Do you think satan accepts me even though it is a very slim chance that i can do any of the rituals untill I'm out of the house (18 yrs old)? I've tried all I could. Please, any advice?

 

[doom1n1gloom]

For now, do rituals in your astral temple, it'll have to substitute for now. Hang in there!!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "caleb.gruen" <caleb.gruen@... wrote:

Okay, my family is very seriously christian and ever since i was very very little, when i heard a story of satan, first time i heard bout him i had this feeling i've never had before. Don't get the imoression that it was bad because it's actually the best feeling i've ever had and I still get it everytime i hear somethin bout satan or demons or just anything satanic i get this feeling. It's like a feeling of a mix of fire and a shocking sensation at the same time. The problem is that my parent(My dad's side of the family)try to take to church and i tell them church is full of lies and they try to brain wash us with their anti-satanic attitudes. But if i tell my family, I will be disowned so I don't knoiw what to do and I don't know how to get the supplies for any of the rituals. I've physically, spiritually, and mentally accepted satan as my true god and father. I've even written some thoughts on a clean piece of paper and threw it into a candle with a small dot of blood dripped on it, signed with my name. Now the candle was green but that's all I could take from my mom, since we have a don't ask don't tell relationship. Do you think satan accepts me even though it is a very slim chance that i can do any of the rituals untill I'm out of the house (18 yrs old)? I've tried all I could. Please, any advice?