I used to be commited to Satanism very much but then, for some reason something kept telling me to look away and this (what I belive to be some kind of entity) finally drove me to look away from Satanism. Recently I have broke free of it holding me back but now, i dont feel so much of a Satanist anymore, I feel pathetic, unworthy and unwanted. I am only 14 years old and trying to keep me being a Satanist hidden from my family so I can't hold a Satanic ritual or anything like that, the only thing i have been able to do was just to some meditations. How can I dedicate myself more to Satan, there are so many lies tied around me I can't even think straight, the other morning i woke up very late and it was as if all my body functions were "shut down". I dont know what to belive anymore and i need extreme guidance. Please help!
