Well first of all I'd like to introduce myself, My name is Barry, I am 17 years old and I am new to Satanism. I come from a Christian family and that was pretty much all I knew because of what I was taught growing up. I was always interested in magic, spells and anything of that sort. I started losing faith in "God" because of my life and how everything was going for me, it's like I lost hope in everything and didn't really have much to believe in anymore. I did my research on Satan and came across Satanism, as I read more and more I really liked the idea and what they had to say about other religions. It all seemed correct and I became very excited. I took about a day to think about everything and if I really wanted to pull through on this. Even though I was very nervous and scared because of what I was previously taught I made my final decision. That same night I performed the ritual and were on my way down the left hand path.
The next day I went to school feeling positive, full of energy and pretty much like a new man haha. Little things after that happened to me but were not really explainable, nothing major occurred until a couple weeks later. It was a Monday night and I had stayed up late on the phone with my girlfriend, I went to sleep but woken up out of no where about an hour or two later. I opened my eyes for a little bit and laid there, after a minute or two I closed my eyes to try and go back to sleep. Not too long after that I felt the blanket move around my legs, the blanket rubbed against my leg in a downward motion very slowly so I completely held my body still not moving anything making sure that it wasn't me who had moved it but it just kept going. I felt something beside me as if another person had just came and laid in the bed with me, at this moment I were so sure that something was beside me that I thought one of my friends came over and were messing around or something but I knew this couldn't be true because of how late it was. I became very afraid and my nerves were going crazy, I couldn't stop shaking in fear. I didn't even want to turn around to see if anyone was there. Suddenly I heard a voice say something but it wasn't just anybody talking, the voice came in my mind and I knew it wasn't me thinking because I know how I sound. I didn't really pay attention and listen to what the voice was saying so almost immediately after I heard it I said "What?!" in my mind as if I were in shock that I was hearing something right now and were going crazy. The voice repeated it. I could tell that whoever was talking to me was a man, he seemed very young and his voice was like no other. It was very gentle, calming and relaxing. "Close your eyes/Keep your eyes closed while I lay in the bed with you." At the time I couldn't really make out what he had said in the beginning of the sentence but I'm pretty sure it was something like that, the rest about laying in the bed with me was very clear. I didn't respond because I were still very afraid and never had anything happen to me like this. I turned around as fast as I could and saw nothing, the blanket was flat and no one was there. I sat there in bed thinking about what had just happened. I was not scared no more, I didn't turn the light on or nothing, I just laid back down as if nothing happened. I was and still am so mad at myself because I know this had to be Father Satan, I believe he came to talk to me and help me understand more or maybe just to tell me something. I tried contacting him again and again through thought but never got a response, I wanted him to come back so bad and I still do. Feel free to ask any questions or respond telling me what you think about this or if you want to give any advice, thank you for hearing my story. Dark blessings to you all. Hail Satan!
The next day I went to school feeling positive, full of energy and pretty much like a new man haha. Little things after that happened to me but were not really explainable, nothing major occurred until a couple weeks later. It was a Monday night and I had stayed up late on the phone with my girlfriend, I went to sleep but woken up out of no where about an hour or two later. I opened my eyes for a little bit and laid there, after a minute or two I closed my eyes to try and go back to sleep. Not too long after that I felt the blanket move around my legs, the blanket rubbed against my leg in a downward motion very slowly so I completely held my body still not moving anything making sure that it wasn't me who had moved it but it just kept going. I felt something beside me as if another person had just came and laid in the bed with me, at this moment I were so sure that something was beside me that I thought one of my friends came over and were messing around or something but I knew this couldn't be true because of how late it was. I became very afraid and my nerves were going crazy, I couldn't stop shaking in fear. I didn't even want to turn around to see if anyone was there. Suddenly I heard a voice say something but it wasn't just anybody talking, the voice came in my mind and I knew it wasn't me thinking because I know how I sound. I didn't really pay attention and listen to what the voice was saying so almost immediately after I heard it I said "What?!" in my mind as if I were in shock that I was hearing something right now and were going crazy. The voice repeated it. I could tell that whoever was talking to me was a man, he seemed very young and his voice was like no other. It was very gentle, calming and relaxing. "Close your eyes/Keep your eyes closed while I lay in the bed with you." At the time I couldn't really make out what he had said in the beginning of the sentence but I'm pretty sure it was something like that, the rest about laying in the bed with me was very clear. I didn't respond because I were still very afraid and never had anything happen to me like this. I turned around as fast as I could and saw nothing, the blanket was flat and no one was there. I sat there in bed thinking about what had just happened. I was not scared no more, I didn't turn the light on or nothing, I just laid back down as if nothing happened. I was and still am so mad at myself because I know this had to be Father Satan, I believe he came to talk to me and help me understand more or maybe just to tell me something. I tried contacting him again and again through thought but never got a response, I wanted him to come back so bad and I still do. Feel free to ask any questions or respond telling me what you think about this or if you want to give any advice, thank you for hearing my story. Dark blessings to you all. Hail Satan!
