My experience hearing the Gods, real or fake?

[Prosperous]

Recently, I felt a lot of frustration because I am not able to hear them.

A long time ago, I had the ability to hear a voice in my head, in my own voice, but clearly not coming from me. It was very accurate. I lost this ability later, and this was before I knew Zevism.

That voice taught me to never believe everything I hear and that I should always discern. It respected me deeply and encouraged me a lot. At that time, I believed it was the universe. The voice never boasted or exaggerated itself; it kept pushing me forward and helping me advance. It also made me feel holy. It viewed me in a much better way than I viewed myself.

I remember once, after forgetting about it for a long time, I asked in my mind: “Are you still here?”

The voice answered instantly: “I am always here, you forget about me.”

I was shocked.

The voice also gave me positive prophecies, and many times they turned out to be exactly true.

I do not know who it was. Now that I am a Zefist, I tried to get this ability back, but I get confusion. Before, I could talk to the voice easily because I assumed it was God, so I could focus naturally. Now, I know there are different Gods, and I do not know who spoke to me before, so I am unsure how to focus.

Recently, this frustration became very intense, and I started trying to reconnect.

At one moment, I spoke to what I believed was my guardian demon aligned with Zeus, and I heard: “What are you talking about? You have no guardian demon.”

For a moment, I believed the Gods had left me, and I accepted it as their choice.

Then I gave it a second thought and realized that what I heard did not sound like a God and did not sound like the voice I used to hear long ago. That voice was always supportive. At that moment, I knew I would have a hard time discerning.

I started asking the Gods repeatedly: “Please talk in my mind. You can do something extreme, I can handle it, just please give me a smooth start so I do not get scared.”

Yesterday, while I was about to sleep, I started asking a voice very basic, repetitive questions. I managed to get a grip on it and assumed the answers were not mine. The answering thoughts sounded very far away, while my own thoughts were clearly in my head.

I continued directing my thoughts toward it. The voice answered in a strange way: it would start a sentence and then stop. It was as if, when I expected what it would say next, it stopped.

I continued with simple, repetitive questions about why I cannot hear.

Suddenly, the voice felt closer instead of far. I was still not sure if it was mine or not. I kept asking the same simple questions: “I just want to understand why I cannot hear you, or why you do not want to talk to me.”

Suddenly, a thought appeared that was clearly not mine, 100%. It said:

“You can hear the voice of Gods only after 10 years of practice.”

I became very frustrated and labeled this as a negative prophecy and rejected it. The voice also sounded ugly and had a bad vibe.

Is this how enemy entities sound?

I then returned to the first voice, because I had a grip on it and felt connected to it. This was happening while I was almost asleep, going deeper and deeper.

I asked again: “Will I hear you soon?” or “Why can’t I hear you?”

Suddenly, I heard a female voice, 100% clearly.

100% not mine.

100% sounding like someone else speaking.

She had a natural way of talking, not robotic, with her own tone and manner of speech. The voice sounded mature. She spoke in a lovely tone, almost as if she was smiling while talking, and said:

“I will not talk to you in the next days, and I can state the reasons.”

I became curious and wanted to ask why, but then I realized what had just happened. My eyes opened fully, I was completely awake, and I started analyzing the experience.

My questions are:

• Is the ugly voice related to an enemy entity?

• Can I assume the second voice was real contact?

• I am planning to do this from time to time while falling asleep to learn how to hear.

Based on the artworks published on the forum, I imagined a Goddess’s voice would sound around 23 years old. What I heard sounded closer to 29–34 years old.

Finally if it is not okay to tell details like this please inform me, i do not know if the Gods like that or not, i went by my intuition, i invented a technique to know what to share and what not to share i close eyes and ask and wait to see a yes or no in my mind, when i asked about this post i saw the “y” of yes so i assumed its yea but until now i am seing only yes lol i never saw a no so i do not know if this is accurate

 

[Prosperous]

To be more accurate and to verify if the first voice was ennemy entity, the voice that told me “ you will hear the gods after 10 years” was not clearly someone else talking, i am sure its not me , but it sounded like if its my voice but in same time it isnt, it was different than my voice, it also felt like it penetrated and poped up in a moment quickly and finished all the sentence on its own but it had a weird ugly vibe it wasnt pleasant and i think it had a little buzzing in it , like “zzzz” in it, i do not know how to explain but it was nothing like the female voice, it was just bad, ugly and sounded like if it took advantage that i was open at that moment and got in my mind.

i literally felt it rise up beyond a level then i heard the whole sentence and it vanished ( i do not know how to explain i do not even know what level is that but thats how i experienced it) generally it was unpleasant to the point i instantly dismissed it. It clearly sounded intrusive.