. I really do try to make some sort of connection or go into a meditative state but If I do, how do I know?
this meditative state you are talking about is called the trance state (which is not nessacairy for most working) or just a state of intense concentration or blankness (void meditation).basically whenever you are at EASE and relaxed you are in a meditative state ideally you should be in a light trance but being at ease and relaxed both mentally and physically should bring just about that.(more about trance state in robert bruces a treatise on astral projection)
And the whole thing about negative energy and "don't pay attention to it". How do i kno what is negative and what's good?
HP Pythia always said , if something doesnt feel right then dont do it, use common sense etcas with regards to negativity HP vovim writes about beginning struggles in meditation and why the body rejects it at first but embraces it later on (read it in his PDF found on Library of Thoth)
I smoke a lot of weed . So if that has anything to do with it tell me .
weed is bad for your soul , it makes holes in your aura and destroys you, please try to stop it ,my biggest advice here is to either ask father for a demon/ness lover or summon a demon who can help you with your problem (though the demon/ness lover path is way easier and more pleasurable and helps open you up to the astral) BUT you need to work in order to feel your succubi this takes a bit of time (3 months minimum if you were persistant).
HP vovim says : one cannot advance spiritually without advancing physically and one cannot advance physically without advancing mentally.
please keep meditating and stick to it, stop for a second and ask yourself, what is your purpose in this life ?
HAIL SATAN FOREVER!