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Sexuality M*sturbation addiction and masochist, self-flagellation fetishes

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it is such a hard topic for me since it is very personal and something i try to get rid off but start doing in the every possible time.

the first thing is about my sexual desires bc they are not normal, deep down i find myself craving humiliation towards me, getting bullied, getting beaten so on and so forth wanting these and addictively wanting these things are both hurting me bc i don't want to feel like this but also i do find ways to practice this , find people who are willing to do these sings while s-e-x and those things do give me pleasure but the worst part i want these to be life long like i find myself Fantasizing about being someones slaves but ofc after the ejaculation i feel disgust towards myself then i promise not to participate in these things and watch these things but the minute i started getting hard i always find myself wanting to get DEHUMANIZED..

and about the other thing i tried to stop it like said and tried to be with other people all the time tries to be busy all the time but the problem is even in the most busiest in the most trying day i find a way to watch these sexual humiliation-dom slave videos like for example i literally have a JOB but when i go to the toilet for peeing i open these porn watch and ejaculate even before this job while i was at the library 24/7 when i was in my class breaks i used to go the toilet and start doing all that

and ofc as you can guess i don't do my power meditations perfectly and the biggest reason to that is my home is full of the most conserative Christian people so i cant do anything at home only nights but it must be short and always getting interrupted

so i do vibrate while going to work or job but thats not even a full meditation cuz i literally walk, i do vibrate mantras and do affirmations

but thats literally all i can do bc sometime i can't even imagine anything any color of eneegies

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Hello.

You need to work on this problem on multiple levels. From what you describe, this is no longer just an occasional temptation, since you are actively finding ways to do it even while at work, at school, or when you are trying to keep yourself busy.

Spiritually, I would start with the Self Love Meditation by High Priestess Lydia Coventina, because the desire to be humiliated and dehumanized can also be connected with how you see and value yourself.

I would also perform purification workings consistently. When a habit or craving has become this deeply rooted, you should not expect one working to solve everything. There are several cleaning workings on the forum, and you can also obtain the Advanced Purification Ritual from the Hall of Osiris.

Find a suitable affirmation as well and repeat it every day, especially before sleeping and after waking up, preferably while in a trance state. Focus the affirmation on self-control, self-respect, and completely freeing yourself from this behavior.

At the same time, do not rely only on spiritual workings. What you describe is already interfering with your normal daily activities, so I strongly suggest considering professional help as well. Professionals who deal with compulsive sexual behavior can help you understand the triggers and break patterns that can be very difficult to overcome entirely by yourself.

Work on both sides instead of expecting one single method to fix everything.

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The issues you describe may be relieved and/or healed using different workings. One of them is Healing the Emotional Body: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/healing-the-emotional-body-for-men-too-dont-disregard-this.292496

The Recalibrating Sexual Energy meditation will help you in establishing a healthier sexuality: https://ancient-forums.com/threads/sex-energy-re-calibration-meditation.303714

In addition, please make sure to establish the habit of performing Aura Cleaning and Aura of Protection daily.

One shouldn't start all these workings simultaneously, as this may end with a burnout. Instead, start with one working on an astrologically favorable date, and move on to the next one when the first one is finished.

May you find healing, balance, and empowerment on your path 🙏

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