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Lost in life

MercuryWisdom3 min to read

I’ve been introduced to JoS when I was very young, since then and before I felt like I was a very special person and had great potential. I do. But right now at this point in my life I’m no where near special, I’m actually doing worse in life than most of my peers or normal people.

I’m not blessed with heritage, I don’t have a powerful rich family, connections, I don’t have great looks at the moment (I’m aging terribly despite being very young), I’m not very smart (academically I mean) and I’m not very skilled at an art form, I’m not spiritually powerful. At least not to the required degree.

Despite this I’m cursed with extremely large dreams and potential that I’m nowhere near.

I can’t accept even being a millionaire (I’m dead broke actually) I want and I feel destined to be a billionaire, I want to be beautiful, artistically gifted and talented, have extreme spiritual power, and build an actual empire and just have so much power, influence, and I want it to be extreme.

Recently, I’m starting to realize more and more what it takes to be extraordinary.

And I really don’t know if I have what it takes, actually it seems I don’t.

It all ties to discipline, hard work, consistency, patience, but to an extreme level tied to the level you want to succeed but 10x.

And I feel this is so suffocating to me. I have been struggling with consistency and progress since forever.

Hps Pythia was once homeless, suicidal, and depressed and she mastered and transformed all this till she became a Hero and Goddess.

I’m dealing with similar things that make me hopeless and powerless but I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around.

I keep trying and trying but trying’s not enough.

I feel and I know that I’m very unremarkable in the grand scheme of things I feel like an insect that’s going nowhere and keep getting crushed and I just don’t have it in me to turn it all around. I keep trying and I haven’t lost hope. But I have no results or anything material.

I wish I was supported, everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you but I really do need someone, I just feel like I can’t do it alone. I wish the Gods would help me a bit and help me in a material real way. I have no support from my family and I’m all alone and I don’t think I can make it alone.

I just wish I can be blessed and not have to work extremely hard for something and be patient for extremely long amount of times to get something. I’m not very good at patience and it really hurts.

At least if I have to work hard I need to at least work hard in something that makes sense to me. I need a north star. But right now I’m just very lost.

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Aside from that I´m sure you allready looked in your birthchart to see in which field you can make the best money.

I struggeled with kind of the same problems you did describe, big dreams. But as HPZM did point out in a recent sermon there is also false dreams:
"One is no longer tormented by false fears, false projections, false dreams (yes, there is also such a thing), or false estimates." https://www.ancient-forums.com/threads/chaos-first-success-later.302744/

Find something you really like and you can make money with it. Avoid unnessesary spending/find cheaper alternatives.

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"Human beings must become enlightened in order to find their way in the dark. Becoming enlightened means becoming smart travelers, who acquire knowledge of the way, an understanding of the local language and friendship with other travelers. We are all travelers in eternity." Thoth

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Greetings, Brother!

everyone tells you no one’s coming to save you

Everyone except me. And except anyone whom Gods saved and for whom they forever carried all weights. Because some people are busy and pregnant with Gods' affairs that are also important. When you work for Gods 24/7 they carry 100% lifts for you.

Yet if you wish to advance or to achieve something of your own in some field of course Gods will let you tap into the path and master it. This they do not to "force you to be strong against your will" (like greys usually do) but to give your life purpose - because the real Journey may happen only when you really love the path and really wish to learn it for yourself. For example, Gods will help you and shield you from everything because you spend 24/7 in their work, but if you wish to learn art and yourself ask it from them they will lead you to good teachers, books and study materials, and let you tread this path because otherwise there will be no artist. Probably it will not be "hard" because all its details will be loved and desired, but it will demand effort and battle as much as every Knight tournament for the Dame's hand demands battle from a Knight.

Another way to feel that all weights are carried for you is to not be ambitious and be genuinely happy with little. To consider every my little tortoise step as grand as kings consider theirs. To sincerely enjoy little things that are only seen by ants and flies. I think this staying power, ability to enjoy small results is a foundation of all patience, staying power and long term service.

I recommend Tao Te Ching and all Taoist literature for it. All known Eastern image of a tortoise is also a symbol of this: it goes with little steps yet it "overruns the Achilles" which means that the Path of the Serpent which tortoise is a symbol of and which is our path of reincarnations in material world, is a path to be taken slowly and gradually, enjoying and contemplating its every step. The important side of every achievement is the path itself. It is not about the result it led to but about how it was trodden, because it is in itself a result. For this it must be loved of course. This is what I think "living your life" means - living a life you yourself chosen out of romance, not forced one, not disgusted one. This is why, I think, we have Lovers in Tarot meaning both romance and choice.

Of course no one now enjoys their so called "life" because we do not tread our paths anymore. We do not seek purpose or fulfilled life anymore. We do not know that such exists. Yehuborim taught us do not anymore know what we really love and what would make us that enthusiastic and that romantic that we would do it 24/7 and not consider it "hard work" at all. This is why they say "life without love is not a life". Love is a symbol here of things that are meaningful.

To find such an affair I asked Zeus to lead me to one and he did. Not to say it is an easy affair and I do not need to even give one single damn about it. It needs attention. But it is the same as when you love a Fair Maiden you do not feel tired or bored by showing her attention. So is with the loved affair: you do not feel it as burden. When you fall in greatest love you do not see one sided self sacrifice (that an affair such as art often demands) as one anymore. You see it as wonderful spiritual entertainment giving you purpose.

Treat your situation as mystery. Now that you did not yet recognized your crush, ask Gods to lead you to one. (By crush I mean any sphere: art, science, whatever you seek for).

The greatest love story is not in its result - of being buried in one tomb - but in the happy thereafter process that made every moment of your life full of higher purpose. I believe so is every worthwhile path.

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