Lost and confused

[woodlandchaos]

I'm at the point in my life that I have begin to really question thing. About what has happened since I was 10 (When this all started).
First off I have always believed in Satan and demons, among other beings. I'll admit at times I was misguided by others, confused and taken down the wrong paths, but recently I stopped fighting something inside myself and opened up to what I had felt.
I have dreams, I see and feel things that others do not, I have dreams about things I simply can't explain, and have had the same entity come to me for a long time in them.
Of course I fought myself on what I believed or did not believe for decades, until a matter of months ago. Something came to me in the most vivid dream I have ever had, telling me of something that was coming. Still I felt fear of the things I saw, until several weeks ago, when I opened myself up and accepted it.
My thoughts on demons is, that the term has been used too loosely. Anything can be good or evil, which is a man made concept. I for one have never found what I considered to be a demon bad, but I think our own notions of what we think should be bring about the negative results.
Basicly I don't fully understand what has happened all this time, nor what I am supposed to be doing. I feel lost and confused. It's taken me many years now to actually post her, even after reading Joy of Satan for a long time.

 

[Shan823]

Your feeling that you are lost and confused comes from the fact that humanity has been lied to and conditioned, from the enemy, to be a lost empty shell. If you haven't dedicated then you are encouraged to do so. In coming to Satan, we enter a new life by means of getting direction and opening up our minds. 
Whats best for you to do, is to learn to develop a loving relationship with yourself and Satan.No need to rush or feel overwhelmed. WE must all start from somewhere.
The Yahoo groups are HERE for YOUR support. WE are all in this together.
On the joyofatan website, meditation section, this is where you shall begin. The meditations DO work and work to evolve and change you. Satan and the Daemons are here for you and want you to elevate yourself. 
I am experiencing this everyday when I meditate and felt myself come a long way in my steady advancement.
Take your time with the beginner exercises and be aware of yourself and your new purpose and path. The meditations are very healing and work to open you up. If you ever need guidance and help and are going through an issue, keep meditating, and post on the groups, there is much to learn from the many experienced Satanists here. Also most important always ask Satan and the gods for support if you need a shoulder to lean on.
Power meditation is the basis of Spiritual satanism for a reason. This is where we grow and blossom and become strong independent individuals

 Hail our Creator God Satan.



  I'm at the point in my life that I have begin to really question thing. About what has happened since I was 10 (When this all started).
First off I have always believed in Satan and demons, among other beings. I'll admit at times I was misguided by others, confused and taken down the wrong paths, but recently I stopped fighting something inside myself and opened up to what I had felt.
I have dreams, I see and feel things that others do not, I have dreams about things I simply can't explain, and have had the same entity come to me for a long time in them.
Of course I fought myself on what I believed or did not believe for decades, until a matter of months ago. Something came to me in the most vivid dream I have ever had, telling me of something that was coming. Still I felt fear of the things I saw, until several weeks ago, when I opened myself up and accepted it.
My thoughts on demons is, that the term has been used too loosely. Anything can be good or evil, which is a man made concept. I for one have never found what I considered to be a demon bad, but I think our own notions of what we think should be bring about the negative results.
Basicly I don't fully understand what has happened all this time, nor what I am supposed to be doing. I feel lost and confused. It's taken me many years now to actually post her, even after reading Joy of Satan for a long time.