Hello,
My name is Ty Sands I am 23 years old. I'll be 24 in June. when I was a small child my grandmother who was a religious women was a Christian. she said when I was young that she converted me to Christianity. I don't remember any of this though. at age 10 I felt like I was different and wasn't even really a Christian because I started to defend myself at school from bullies and I got such joy in fighting. I could feel the hatred and rush of battle (this got me in trouble a lot) at age 13 I told myself "I'm not a Christian I don't feel like one and I hate the idea of being one" so as a 13yr old I made up my own contract and wrote down some stuff and went to the school play ground after hours and it was storming and raining hard. perfect setting I thought. I read it aloud and cut my thumb and pressed my blood to the paper. from there on out I switched from Satanism and Christianity constantly. back and forth from age 13 to age 18. at age 19 I looked up online about how to sign my name into being a true Satanist. I gathered the stuff. a candle (red being my choice) a knife and the paper that I read from. after I read the paper and signed my name in blood I burned the paper like it told me. after that I felt amazing and so happy. but some stuff started to happen in my families house hold from family getting angry over simple stuff. they started to figure out that something wasn't right. so they "cleansed" the house native American style since we are native American. but ever since I did the ritual and devoted my life to Satan I felt like I finally truly belong. But since you know where I come from The thing I'm asking is:
my friend laughed at the fact I call myself a Satanist because he comes from a darker past. I asked him why does he laugh and he said "because I don't' think you're a true Satanist" this made me very upset and extremely angry. I just want to know, am I a true Satanist even though my background comes from a religious family and everything from my childhood from switching back and forth constantly but Finally understanding at age 19?
My name is Ty Sands I am 23 years old. I'll be 24 in June. when I was a small child my grandmother who was a religious women was a Christian. she said when I was young that she converted me to Christianity. I don't remember any of this though. at age 10 I felt like I was different and wasn't even really a Christian because I started to defend myself at school from bullies and I got such joy in fighting. I could feel the hatred and rush of battle (this got me in trouble a lot) at age 13 I told myself "I'm not a Christian I don't feel like one and I hate the idea of being one" so as a 13yr old I made up my own contract and wrote down some stuff and went to the school play ground after hours and it was storming and raining hard. perfect setting I thought. I read it aloud and cut my thumb and pressed my blood to the paper. from there on out I switched from Satanism and Christianity constantly. back and forth from age 13 to age 18. at age 19 I looked up online about how to sign my name into being a true Satanist. I gathered the stuff. a candle (red being my choice) a knife and the paper that I read from. after I read the paper and signed my name in blood I burned the paper like it told me. after that I felt amazing and so happy. but some stuff started to happen in my families house hold from family getting angry over simple stuff. they started to figure out that something wasn't right. so they "cleansed" the house native American style since we are native American. but ever since I did the ritual and devoted my life to Satan I felt like I finally truly belong. But since you know where I come from The thing I'm asking is:
my friend laughed at the fact I call myself a Satanist because he comes from a darker past. I asked him why does he laugh and he said "because I don't' think you're a true Satanist" this made me very upset and extremely angry. I just want to know, am I a true Satanist even though my background comes from a religious family and everything from my childhood from switching back and forth constantly but Finally understanding at age 19?
