christopheralan89
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When I was fifteen, I was forced to go to a Christian school, and I think as a result, I was led to the path of Satanism. I found the JoS site and took a flying leap into Satanism doing the dedication ritual.
Of course, as young kids do, I changed my mind out of fear and went back to Xtianity.
Now, I'm 21 years old, and I've felt the calling to come back to Satan again. While being an Atheist for a few years, I've always had something calling me back to Satan.
I did my first ritual a few nights ago. It was a basic ritual followed by a prayer of apology and meditation. I asked Satan to forgive me and reveal himself to me in a way that would help me grow on my path. I was instantly sucked into this trance-like state where I felt like my soul was floating at the top of my head. I felt this very vibrant connection, and my heart was pounding. I knew I felt Satan.
Since that day, I've felt Satan on a regular basis. He's helped me with my anxiety at school, helped my sex life, and given me much more confidence. The list goes on and on.
I have a Christian bible in my room. After the ritual, I couldn't sleep at all. The thought of that bible being in my room came to mind, and a very stern "NOW" popped into my head, so I immediately removed the bible from my house and fell right asleep.
But my problem is today. I slept with a fan blowing on my face all night, so today, I felt very sick and groggy. I had a hard time feeling Satan today, so I decided to do another ritual. The ritual was kind of sloppy because of my drowsiness, and I didn't really feel anything during the ritual other than an energy change when I called the corners. I tried power meditating, but I was unable to focus. Is this because I'm just off in the head today, or is it because I'm not doing something right with Satan?
And is what I felt during my first ritual normal?
Sorry for the long post. I'm new.
Thank you!
Of course, as young kids do, I changed my mind out of fear and went back to Xtianity.
Now, I'm 21 years old, and I've felt the calling to come back to Satan again. While being an Atheist for a few years, I've always had something calling me back to Satan.
I did my first ritual a few nights ago. It was a basic ritual followed by a prayer of apology and meditation. I asked Satan to forgive me and reveal himself to me in a way that would help me grow on my path. I was instantly sucked into this trance-like state where I felt like my soul was floating at the top of my head. I felt this very vibrant connection, and my heart was pounding. I knew I felt Satan.
Since that day, I've felt Satan on a regular basis. He's helped me with my anxiety at school, helped my sex life, and given me much more confidence. The list goes on and on.
I have a Christian bible in my room. After the ritual, I couldn't sleep at all. The thought of that bible being in my room came to mind, and a very stern "NOW" popped into my head, so I immediately removed the bible from my house and fell right asleep.
But my problem is today. I slept with a fan blowing on my face all night, so today, I felt very sick and groggy. I had a hard time feeling Satan today, so I decided to do another ritual. The ritual was kind of sloppy because of my drowsiness, and I didn't really feel anything during the ritual other than an energy change when I called the corners. I tried power meditating, but I was unable to focus. Is this because I'm just off in the head today, or is it because I'm not doing something right with Satan?
And is what I felt during my first ritual normal?
Sorry for the long post. I'm new.
Thank you!
