During the period of January I stopped meditating. I've been at it since 2016 so almost 6 years. Due to various levels of ignornace and perhaps even stupidity in my part. I don't think I ever meditated correctly nor well for that matter.
For example there is a recent thread whereby the posting [paraphrasing] put "You must enter a trance of varying degree depending on your capacity to perform meditation. If not your just "imagining".
That's one of my main issues.
In all the years of meditating even before 2016 at the turn of the previous decade I began to meditate again even doing MerKaBa for a long period of time, months.
1: Was all that just my imagination?
2: If I meditated and something occurred in a lesser form, does that mean I'm not clean, protected, nor progressing?
I mention this because I've been reevaluating myself over these past few weeks that have passed since the past two months. And basically except meditating incorrectly or not properly. I've come to the conclusion that it's just my imagination. Even doing Squares which are seen as extremely powerful; I've done them but that doesn't mean it worked.
I don't want to lie to myself and believe that if I do XYZ things occur or things manifest. But I'd actually like to know why even new people waste their time acquiring things materially if we've informed people they need to work on their soul.
And that is another topic working on the soul. If I don't want things nor care to do things and just do them because it's the new thing that popped out. Then if I was consistently and properly working on my soul.
What then?
I apologize if I sound anti-JoS or saying JoS is fake. But in my lackluster way of delving into things nothing has occurred. Funny I know you have to work on the chakras to propagate the soul. But I barely if ever worked on them.
I guess you can say if I barely tried things out why am I so quick to dismiss or leave meditation alone. Well because I'm burnt out, it's become a mental curiosity rather then a physical activity. Even Yoga i.e. doing something physical tires and bores the crap out of me.
It's like a daily thing and that's when it gets old. For example I've known about lucid dreaming and astral projection phenomena for decades now and while it's been mentioned spiritual people who push themselves experience this more often. Except inasmuch learning some mindfulness/void whatever you want to call thought control and trance, putting the body to sleep but keeping the mind awake. There have been people who've done fun stuff with spirituality and astral projection as a fun activity without having to delve into a mishmash of activities just to propagate the soul.
Perhaps I wasn't meant to be spiritual or do much with spirituality. I know spiritual stuff has exploded these last 10+ years with the mass communication expansion. But for me I'm like a hypocrite, I know, study, and in some cases even arrogantly state stuff maybe even as fact. Reminds me of a thread PowerofJustice replied I seemingly state stuff as fact even though I replied of course it's not a fact it's just my assumption I'm theorycrafting.
If spirituality has not worked for me and I don't want to be hardcore daily doing stuff. And really as a question.
3: What stuff to do as a person spiritually raising up? How do people know what to fix and what not to fix for later or I see people post I'm doing this effect ritual on me and I'm planning on removing this karma. But how do you know that is what needs to be done?
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4: IF I was doing stuff well then what? I know the 40-day guide and whatnot but it seems like the entire point is the very basic mental control and trance are the two main skills that have been missing from me since I ever studied spiritual phenomenas back in '99/00 with the internet. IF anything it begs the question.
IF trance is important and not a form of imagination or whatever. Then is trance a must to make meditation real?
Was I not realistically meditating? Was it again just imagination, theorycrafting playing around with my head.
I think the most obvious question is what is meditation? I know what power meditation is but void/mindful/trance/post affirmation visualizing a metaphysical imprint what is it?
And if meditation is important and part of life. Doesn't that mean it's a complete and utter waste of time doing it without the Gods and spiritually advanced people. It's been said even very spiritually advanced Humans are nothing compared to what we were in the past and compared to the Gods it's an insane difference.
So what I'm asking is IF I don't need meditation to change and can change with information and update my databanks. Why INDEED is meditation needed? I notice all this health propagation with meditation and it begs the question if you can think it and change with new information then the obvious is why do you need to meditate to change.
I have never had a moment I can say meditation has ever changed my life nor procured something where I go and say this event occurred because meditation is awesome and produced this scenario and it was wonderful.
IF anything I'm more like a maniacal religious or in this case spiritually manic person. Reminds me of religious mania being a reason to inter someone into a house for mentally ill people during the past around two-three hundred years ago.
I guess simply is meditation fake or maybe we are too unreliable to effectively do stuff with it? Begs the question of why bother with meditation if we aren't appropriate for it.
All I know is almost every person comes to meditation and spirituality with problems to fix. So far I've yet heard of someone coming to spirituality or whatever to improve and advance themselves further. IF anything it's a meme trying to find the magickal cure all pill or maybe even learn it just to escape reality.
IF anything it begs the question if people are spiritual simply because they don't know how to use a technology or don't study or don't educate themselves or out of ignorance and maybe stupidity.
If in the past spirituality is to propagate a person better. Why is it every Tom, Dick, and Harry comes to spirituality for whatever negative. It begs the question is religion and spirituality something that needs to be abolished from people and get them to do stuff like working better or improving society or doing something different educating themselves. Seems like any fucker can type up spirituality and state believe in this it'll work and help. And what about the factor of it not helping nor working. It's like religion and spirituality are just tools to keep people preoccupied not akin to the current fake msm news that stopped wasting time with coof and moved Humanity to yet another stupid bullshit.
I don't want to sound atheistic or even nihilistic as I've been said such factors. But time and again nothing interesting or cool happened. Just meditate do this for 15-20-30 minutes of torture and going man I'm wasting my time. Even simple mindfulness breath/sensation awareness to presently place you in the here and now. Is another huge waste of time. I can genuinely say that my entire time meditating from 2003-Now is simply to pass the time. I did something it worked nope. I know all this spiritual and political stuff and yet it never worked to do anything. I just process it to pass the time. And that's all meditation been passing/wasting my time.
For example there is a recent thread whereby the posting [paraphrasing] put "You must enter a trance of varying degree depending on your capacity to perform meditation. If not your just "imagining".
That's one of my main issues.
In all the years of meditating even before 2016 at the turn of the previous decade I began to meditate again even doing MerKaBa for a long period of time, months.
1: Was all that just my imagination?
2: If I meditated and something occurred in a lesser form, does that mean I'm not clean, protected, nor progressing?
I mention this because I've been reevaluating myself over these past few weeks that have passed since the past two months. And basically except meditating incorrectly or not properly. I've come to the conclusion that it's just my imagination. Even doing Squares which are seen as extremely powerful; I've done them but that doesn't mean it worked.
I don't want to lie to myself and believe that if I do XYZ things occur or things manifest. But I'd actually like to know why even new people waste their time acquiring things materially if we've informed people they need to work on their soul.
And that is another topic working on the soul. If I don't want things nor care to do things and just do them because it's the new thing that popped out. Then if I was consistently and properly working on my soul.
What then?
I apologize if I sound anti-JoS or saying JoS is fake. But in my lackluster way of delving into things nothing has occurred. Funny I know you have to work on the chakras to propagate the soul. But I barely if ever worked on them.
I guess you can say if I barely tried things out why am I so quick to dismiss or leave meditation alone. Well because I'm burnt out, it's become a mental curiosity rather then a physical activity. Even Yoga i.e. doing something physical tires and bores the crap out of me.
It's like a daily thing and that's when it gets old. For example I've known about lucid dreaming and astral projection phenomena for decades now and while it's been mentioned spiritual people who push themselves experience this more often. Except inasmuch learning some mindfulness/void whatever you want to call thought control and trance, putting the body to sleep but keeping the mind awake. There have been people who've done fun stuff with spirituality and astral projection as a fun activity without having to delve into a mishmash of activities just to propagate the soul.
Perhaps I wasn't meant to be spiritual or do much with spirituality. I know spiritual stuff has exploded these last 10+ years with the mass communication expansion. But for me I'm like a hypocrite, I know, study, and in some cases even arrogantly state stuff maybe even as fact. Reminds me of a thread PowerofJustice replied I seemingly state stuff as fact even though I replied of course it's not a fact it's just my assumption I'm theorycrafting.
If spirituality has not worked for me and I don't want to be hardcore daily doing stuff. And really as a question.
3: What stuff to do as a person spiritually raising up? How do people know what to fix and what not to fix for later or I see people post I'm doing this effect ritual on me and I'm planning on removing this karma. But how do you know that is what needs to be done?
and
4: IF I was doing stuff well then what? I know the 40-day guide and whatnot but it seems like the entire point is the very basic mental control and trance are the two main skills that have been missing from me since I ever studied spiritual phenomenas back in '99/00 with the internet. IF anything it begs the question.
IF trance is important and not a form of imagination or whatever. Then is trance a must to make meditation real?
Was I not realistically meditating? Was it again just imagination, theorycrafting playing around with my head.
I think the most obvious question is what is meditation? I know what power meditation is but void/mindful/trance/post affirmation visualizing a metaphysical imprint what is it?
And if meditation is important and part of life. Doesn't that mean it's a complete and utter waste of time doing it without the Gods and spiritually advanced people. It's been said even very spiritually advanced Humans are nothing compared to what we were in the past and compared to the Gods it's an insane difference.
So what I'm asking is IF I don't need meditation to change and can change with information and update my databanks. Why INDEED is meditation needed? I notice all this health propagation with meditation and it begs the question if you can think it and change with new information then the obvious is why do you need to meditate to change.
I have never had a moment I can say meditation has ever changed my life nor procured something where I go and say this event occurred because meditation is awesome and produced this scenario and it was wonderful.
IF anything I'm more like a maniacal religious or in this case spiritually manic person. Reminds me of religious mania being a reason to inter someone into a house for mentally ill people during the past around two-three hundred years ago.
I guess simply is meditation fake or maybe we are too unreliable to effectively do stuff with it? Begs the question of why bother with meditation if we aren't appropriate for it.
All I know is almost every person comes to meditation and spirituality with problems to fix. So far I've yet heard of someone coming to spirituality or whatever to improve and advance themselves further. IF anything it's a meme trying to find the magickal cure all pill or maybe even learn it just to escape reality.
IF anything it begs the question if people are spiritual simply because they don't know how to use a technology or don't study or don't educate themselves or out of ignorance and maybe stupidity.
If in the past spirituality is to propagate a person better. Why is it every Tom, Dick, and Harry comes to spirituality for whatever negative. It begs the question is religion and spirituality something that needs to be abolished from people and get them to do stuff like working better or improving society or doing something different educating themselves. Seems like any fucker can type up spirituality and state believe in this it'll work and help. And what about the factor of it not helping nor working. It's like religion and spirituality are just tools to keep people preoccupied not akin to the current fake msm news that stopped wasting time with coof and moved Humanity to yet another stupid bullshit.
I don't want to sound atheistic or even nihilistic as I've been said such factors. But time and again nothing interesting or cool happened. Just meditate do this for 15-20-30 minutes of torture and going man I'm wasting my time. Even simple mindfulness breath/sensation awareness to presently place you in the here and now. Is another huge waste of time. I can genuinely say that my entire time meditating from 2003-Now is simply to pass the time. I did something it worked nope. I know all this spiritual and political stuff and yet it never worked to do anything. I just process it to pass the time. And that's all meditation been passing/wasting my time.
