Its happening, again

[Dillon]

Well, after doing some meditaions I started to feel a little more "free" but just recently started freaking out (physically) my whole body started twitching, uncontrollably for as well as two minutes. Even right now I am having sudden "bursts". Im trying my hardest to keep up with Father and my self but it feels like its all flying down a long tunnel and if i go into it, it will get worse by the minute. I feel like I need to just get away from my family because it feels like being around them is corrupting my soul with their christian lies. I try to keep a low profile then when they are ot around i will do some meditaion but I dont have the nessisary material to make a commitment to Father. Well, i have decided to start keeping a journal (although the last time i kept a journal about my thoughts my parents found it and they didnt like what they saw) and when i get a chance everyday i will share to you all what is happening in my mental body so i can get further help. I know this is something i should help myself with but I'm too weak to do so.

 

[Frederik]

If i was you i would openly confront your parents with it and tell them to leave you the fuck alone as this is your life,
as with this pressure from the outside its crazy.
As far as i see it, long period of hiding will make hings only worse and get you paranoid, whereas standing openly for your beliefs will free you.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Dillon" <quartyd@... wrote:

Well, after doing some meditaions I started to feel a little more "free" but just recently started freaking out (physically) my whole body started twitching, uncontrollably for as well as two minutes. Even right now I am having sudden "bursts". Im trying my hardest to keep up with Father and my self but it feels like its all flying down a long tunnel and if i go into it, it will get worse by the minute. I feel like I need to just get away from my family because it feels like being around them is corrupting my soul with their christian lies. I try to keep a low profile then when they are ot around i will do some meditaion but I dont have the nessisary material to make a commitment to Father. Well, i have decided to start keeping a journal (although the last time i kept a journal about my thoughts my parents found it and they didnt like what they saw) and when i get a chance everyday i will share to you all what is happening in my mental body so i can get further help. I know this is something i should help myself with but I'm too weak to do so.

 

[David1]

i think these sudeen outbrust of energy could either be to much energy being added to your body. If your doing any medtations involving energy,after your finished. you should breathe the energy into the earth.that should help you. another thing it could be is your christian family sending you their "prayers" which in this case. is overloading you with energy. i dont know exactly what to do in that problem. but you could just tell them to lay of or something

HAIL SATAN

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Dillon" <quartyd@... wrote:

Well, after doing some meditaions I started to feel a little more "free" but just recently started freaking out (physically) my whole body started twitching, uncontrollably for as well as two minutes. Even right now I am having sudden "bursts". Im trying my hardest to keep up with Father and my self but it feels like its all flying down a long tunnel and if i go into it, it will get worse by the minute. I feel like I need to just get away from my family because it feels like being around them is corrupting my soul with their christian lies. I try to keep a low profile then when they are ot around i will do some meditaion but I dont have the nessisary material to make a commitment to Father. Well, i have decided to start keeping a journal (although the last time i kept a journal about my thoughts my parents found it and they didnt like what they saw) and when i get a chance everyday i will share to you all what is happening in my mental body so i can get further help. I know this is something i should help myself with but I'm too weak to do so.