Like completely and totally destroy a person's soul? I ask because during my "depressed" moments, when I feel absolutely worthless to the Gods, I do have thoughts of suicide,but never act on them BECAUSE I want to help. I want to be of vale. and I don't want to just drift aimlessly on the astral if I were to do it. Anyway, back to the subject. Sometimes I just get so sad I wish that I would just completely disappear. I don't want to commit suicide because I don't want to disappoint Father Satan and the Gods. but at the same time, I feel so useless that I wish I didn't exist. and I also have a problem that is keeping me from advancing (It causes depression in me), so I unfortunately get this a lot. I do vibrate the rune Wunjo, but it usually makes me neutral to the problem I am currently having and it doesn't last very long. (I'm still practicing vibrating runes so I don't always get the amount of energy I need from them)
I'm not asking this question so I could "destroy my soul" because like I said,I have thoughts of ending it all, but I would never act on them. I was just curious if there really was a way to do so. If there is, thats pretty scary.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!!!!!
Is there a way to destroy a soul?
kieithnightmare02 min to read
Those thoughts of suicide, they're pervasive some days, huh.
A very wise person once taught me they're really the part of your mind which wants the good things in life. Even on those mornings when my first thought of the day was "I want to die," it wasn't that I really wanted to die (or else I could've just stopped eating) it's just that I wanted a change and I regretted some past choices made which had lead to some painful results and personal losses.
The reply you were given previously is a good one. Take a few minutes and figure out what you're really, really good at. Analyse your strengths. Write them down in a list if you must and be meticulously fair to yourself. In fact, go ahead and write them down. Seeing them listed will help you to better understand your strengths are very real - more real than your problems in fact. Do not let negative thoughts interfere with making this list.
Once you've figured out your personal purpose, do it. This might not even be about making money for all I know, but do it. And just like the sailor who has to adjust their sails to zig-zag their way to the other coast, go with the changes you experience.
Working on achieving your purpose in life (and you get to choose it) will get you out of your own head. There may be no better cure for depression than work of one sort or another. Accomplishment, even just small ones in a series, are a natural "high." I bet you have more to offer than you're allowing yourself to believe.
Hail Satan!
--- In , Justine Pena wrote:
Thank you so much. You're very sweet.. although I have no doubt I'm cared about. (even when i feel depressed it seems a little extreme to say the Gods hate me, but i feel like i dont live up to the standards im expected to) My main problem is accepting myself and the things I'll never have once i do accept myself.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!!!!
--- On Fri, 2/1/13, Aquarian Clown wrote:
From: Aquarian Clown
Subject: Re: Is there a way to destroy a soul?
To:
Date: Friday, February 1, 2013, 4:17 PM
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You feel useless because u have something to do in this lifetime and you are not doing it. means you have to find what u should do and trust me ur objective woll be just lying on the road waiting fir you to pick it up when the time comes. and again , trust me coz ivre been there and actually tried a suicide several times and im glad that there were people to interrupt it and i finally decided to see what this ''meaningless'' life will throw at me and they gave me JoS which lead me to my objective. so yea ull find urs soon stay strong ur a Satanist Satanists are mighty soldiers of freedom ;) and Dad is there caring worrying and watching u kay?
--- In , "kieithnightmare0" wrote:
Like completely and totally destroy a person's soul? I ask because during my "depressed" moments, when I feel absolutely worthless to the Gods, I do have thoughts of suicide,but never act on them BECAUSE I want to help. I want to be of vale. and I don't want to just drift aimlessly on the astral if I were to do it. Anyway, back to the subject. Sometimes I just get so sad I wish that I would just completely disappear. I don't want to commit suicide because I don't want to disappoint Father Satan and the Gods. but at the same time, I feel so useless that I wish I didn't exist. and I also have a problem that is keeping me from advancing (It causes depression in me), so I unfortunately get this a lot. I do vibrate the rune Wunjo, but it usually makes me neutral to the problem I am currently having and it doesn't last very long. (I'm still practicing vibrating runes so I don't always get the amount of energy I need from them)
I'm not asking this question so I could "destroy my soul" because like I said,I have thoughts of ending it all, but I would never act on them. I was just curious if there really was a way to do so. If there is, thats pretty scary.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!!!!!
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Those thoughts of suicide, they're pervasive some days, huh.
A very wise person once taught me they're really the part of your mind which wants the good things in life. Even on those mornings when my first thought of the day was "I want to die," it wasn't that I really wanted to die (or else I could've just stopped eating) it's just that I wanted a change and I regretted some past choices made which had lead to some painful results and personal losses.
The reply you were given previously is a good one. Take a few minutes and figure out what you're really, really good at. Analyse your strengths. Write them down in a list if you must and be meticulously fair to yourself. In fact, go ahead and write them down. Seeing them listed will help you to better understand your strengths are very real - more real than your problems in fact. Do not let negative thoughts interfere with making this list.
Once you've figured out your personal purpose, do it. This might not even be about making money for all I know, but do it. And just like the sailor who has to adjust their sails to zig-zag their way to the other coast, go with the changes you experience.
Working on achieving your purpose in life (and you get to choose it) will get you out of your own head. There may be no better cure for depression than work of one sort or another. Accomplishment, even just small ones in a series, are a natural "high." I bet you have more to offer than you're allowing yourself to believe.
Hail Satan!
--- In , Justine Pena wrote:
Thank you so much. You're very sweet.. although I have no doubt I'm cared about. (even when i feel depressed it seems a little extreme to say the Gods hate me, but i feel like i dont live up to the standards im expected to) My main problem is accepting myself and the things I'll never have once i do accept myself.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!!!!
--- On Fri, 2/1/13, Aquarian Clown wrote:
From: Aquarian Clown
Subject: Re: Is there a way to destroy a soul?
To:
Date: Friday, February 1, 2013, 4:17 PM
Â
You feel useless because u have something to do in this lifetime and you are not doing it. means you have to find what u should do and trust me ur objective woll be just lying on the road waiting fir you to pick it up when the time comes. and again , trust me coz ivre been there and actually tried a suicide several times and im glad that there were people to interrupt it and i finally decided to see what this ''meaningless'' life will throw at me and they gave me JoS which lead me to my objective. so yea ull find urs soon stay strong ur a Satanist Satanists are mighty soldiers of freedom ;) and Dad is there caring worrying and watching u kay?
--- In , "kieithnightmare0" wrote:
Like completely and totally destroy a person's soul? I ask because during my "depressed" moments, when I feel absolutely worthless to the Gods, I do have thoughts of suicide,but never act on them BECAUSE I want to help. I want to be of vale. and I don't want to just drift aimlessly on the astral if I were to do it. Anyway, back to the subject. Sometimes I just get so sad I wish that I would just completely disappear. I don't want to commit suicide because I don't want to disappoint Father Satan and the Gods. but at the same time, I feel so useless that I wish I didn't exist. and I also have a problem that is keeping me from advancing (It causes depression in me), so I unfortunately get this a lot. I do vibrate the rune Wunjo, but it usually makes me neutral to the problem I am currently having and it doesn't last very long. (I'm still practicing vibrating runes so I don't always get the amount of energy I need from them)
I'm not asking this question so I could "destroy my soul" because like I said,I have thoughts of ending it all, but I would never act on them. I was just curious if there really was a way to do so. If there is, thats pretty scary.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!!!!!