Influencing events with thoughts, is it really a siddhi?

[Oroboros]

This will sound like a troll, i may be banned for this, please read all, i am serious 100% , and i will include the method i was using in end of text

In a period of my life i used to use website for roleplaying, long story short, its extremly hard to meet a girl in that website, let alone a girl with the exact age you want, i just had the habit of checking the website a bit before checking porn ( sorry for the words..)

Once i just got idea of influencing the rate at which i meet girls using my mind , i tried it didnt work and i kept tweaking and testing how i can influence this with my mind until i got it, i started by being able to increase the amount of girls i meet at very high rate sometimes even meeting only girls in the website, few times it didnt work, but mostly it did

I was surprised by this at first i thought its luck, so i kept visiting the website and tried to make more specific demands in my mind to see if i can find them, i started with the age( most girls there were 20-30 max)

I wanted to test if its working so i picked the age that is very rare in the website which is +40, i picked for example as a choice " female 43 years"

Then i started meeting Females 42 , 45 , sometimes even 43, but it started being around 40 , i was shocked, i thought its just luck, i tried visiting website without doing the thing with my mind, i couldnt even meet a girl, let alone specific age that i choose and the one that is rare there

I kept doing this for a while, then i thought i need to put this to the test and make it even more specific, so instead of "female 43" , i choose " mom44" for example, and it worked again , not everytime, but mostly, and not exactly mom44, but like mom42 , or mom37, similar stuff , and they started presenting themselves as " im mother im 43" , they started to include word "mother" on their own

i couldnt believe it so i wanted to make it more specific ( please keep in mind even meeting a girl is hard..) i added a detail ( i dont want to write this it may sound really as a troll, but im serious) i added a detail and it worked again, the last age test is i thought of +60women and i still met them( i was mind blown and in same time thinking that its but coincidence since its hard to believe before it happens and when it happens i think its coincidence since i cant duplicate at fast rate, but in same time its impossible to see a +60women there...)

I started thinking of making it harder to make sure its my mind, its not just synchronicities or pure luck even if already this was weird, i got mostly the exact thing i thought about

Because i did that a lot, i knew which region in the world is rare in the website, and when i say rare, i mean i never met 1 from that country there even if i always asked country name or at best , i met 1 , im sure no more than 1 during all that experience that lasted months, so i forgot about age etc and i just decided i will think of the country

And it worked i didnt meet them everysingle time, but i met one every week or something like that in the website , so its extremly huge rate compared to what happened before, what made me remember all this experience is i was going through ToZ siddhis and i saw " influencing reality with thoughts"

What i was doing :
I just opened website, kept trying to interact like if im doing no technique, while from time to time closing eyes visualising the exact age and gender i want to see, and having a big smile and huge INTENSE "happy" feeling linked to it, then i open eyes and continue.
It sounds simple , but this increased the rate at huge rates , from not being able to meet a girl in the website , to meeting the exact or almost exact age i think of then to meeting girls from the country that almost dont exist in that website


Once i did same thing for business sales but in different way, i made sales for that day , then increase sales by 30-40% in that day using purely the mind, what i did is i felt very bad that i didnt get1 more sale, then i started cleaning that feeeling then i heard in my mind " check there is a sale" and i found one, i sent it to the ceo, then i felt bad again for not making one more, and intensified the bad feeling , then i started cleaning the feeling then got another sale usually i hear something then i find a sale, i hear " you made it" or something like that, it doesnt always work sometimes i hear and find nothing but mostly i hear and find, i kept doing it , until i made +5 sales the only thing i did was check email and i see client sending : can i pay now? I send yes , then he pays, thats all i did , every single new email i received paid or +90% i dont remember , but i did just final touch

This is more exhausting compared to the first technique, since this last one make me really tired since i have to feel bad all the time and keep cleaning it, this day when i did it i told my CEO before, i told him watch this i will increase sales with mind only and he encouraged it since he believes that i am kind of spirituals

Some will say why you didnt keep using it ? The next day i got greedy, instead of feeling bad because i didnt get 1 more, i tried doing that for 8 sales , so that each time i check email i get 8 sales, but it didnt work, and i forgot about it


My problem is i am always skeptical, even if that works, and usually use this only when i really need it ( i will stop this habit starting from today) for example once i was driving and my brother was with me, i called my dad he was talking very angry at us, very very very angry, he hang up the phone in angry way, i was driving and told my brother: "watch this", then i felt bad about this while driving and worked on the feeling and removed it, and i put music at full volume and told my brother, dont worry its done, we arrived and my dad was laughing and in extreme good vibe, i did this confidently since i dont know why i have tendency to calm and make everything okay when everything is messed up, i love when everything is f**** up and i make everything okay again, i usually forget about all techniques when everything is okay, which is a problem, i should start using techniques all the time




My question:
I just recalled that, and i still can do it, i want to apply it to my life now, i am afraid of 1 thing, i heared that influencing reality with thoughts + intense emotions cause a backlash, and instead one should feel good but in a balanced way, this made me afraid of using it in my real life , since during the technique i feel intense happy emotion to the point even breath can become weird.

What about the second technique is it okay to use bad feelings & work on them?

Also, is this considered a siddhi?

 

[Oroboros]

( what i will say in this comment was before i dedicate, it was during a time i just knew website JoS but didnt know anything about it besides its about Satanism, i just visited it thats all maybe, something like that)

The last time i used the technique of intense happy feeling, was few weeks ago, i was driving alone , affirming " i am a God" , and feeling the intense feeling, and saying " i am the king on earth, i reign on earth, i am a God , i am a God" , i felt so good doing that , i also gave compliments to strangers, i saw a stranger need a ride, i gave him quick ride, he thanked me, i was feeling good, i gave a charity, everything was going good i was very happy and continuously affirming i am a God, in less than 12hours a very bad thing happened

It sent me on witness mode, i just witnessed how bad life can be, i just witnessed the beautiful stuff and this bad thing and realised its a part of life( luckily i wasnt harmed in bad way, it was just shocking)

I had a tear come of my eye, and in same time i was just witnessing , few hours later i started feeling liquid in top of my head, i didnt care i slept, i woke up, for all day i was feeling liquid in top of my head i was touching with my hand since i thought it may be blood but there was nothing, i googled and found its crown chakra, its a weird feeling , that was the first time in my life i feel that chakra, also for next 7 days i was feeling sometimes like i want to cry, sometimes eyes burning , sometimes weird feeling in solar plexus, and a weird bad feeling in chest, later i became okay

I believe that was a backlash.. but in same time i got positive stuff from the experience so i dont really know its a backlash, but if improving in life means stuff like that its very hard , the day before the day when i felt crown chakra, i was getting suicidal thoughts, but i thought im too strong to even entertain that , if weak people are living i will endure too, so even if i was getting the thoughts i didnt care i just pushed through until i became well, thats why i am not sure about this technique, can someone enlighten me ? Thank you

 

[High Priest Hooded Cobra 666]

Yes, it is. After a point in development, your thoughts alone will influence things like this on a constant basis. It’s therefore important, to manage the thoughts and use them constructively. This is also arrayed in the new Siddhis section, which will be expanded also with how to use each Siddhi in your life.

 

[luis]

Yes, it is. After a point in development, your thoughts alone will influence things like this on a constant basis. It’s therefore important, to manage the thoughts and use them constructively. This is also arrayed in the new Siddhis section, which will be expanded also with how to use each Siddhi in your life.

What about listening/singing a song? Making jokes and so on.. Do you need to whatch anything we think or say? I understand controlling your thoughts and so on but I always wondered about the above.