I'm Very New To Satanism and Need Help

[grandoautemsatanas]

I'm 17. I was raised in a very Christian family and I've always felt out of place. I felt uneasy in their churches and found myself gradually become disgusted by the jaded hypocrisies they spewed. When I was going through the hardest parts of my life, I prayed to their god for relief, for help, for even a little comfort and got nothing in return. So recently, I turned to Satan for help. I prayed to Him once and immediately felt a warmth grow in my heart and spread throughout my body. For the first time in years, I felt at peace. Tonight, I decided to perform my self-dedication ritual. I was already ready to give myself to the Father. I shaved, bathed and meditated. A few hours ago, a storm blew in. Lightning cracked the sky and rain was pouring so hard, it seemed like it was going to flood. I took this as a sign and put on the best clothes I own, lit the only candle I could find and wrote down the prayer on a piece of paper. I recited it out loud, cut my hand with a sharp knife and signed the paper in my own blood. HP Maxine said on her website that in a self-dedication ritual one should let the paper burn in the candle so I did. The fire alarm went off, nearly waking up my very disgustingly Christian mother so I panicked, threw the candle in the sink and it ruined the paper. Its burnt remains are at the bottom of my trash can. I feel love and at peace now but I'm worried. It was such a disrespectful way to end the ritual that was supposed to begin my new life under Satan's guidance. Did Satan accept my dedication to Him?  Is He angry at me for how it ended? Should I try again tomorrow or is He angry at me for following such a blasphemous and hollow faith for so long...??

 

[syer666]

You are one of us now. The enemy tried to fuck up you dedication but you manage it.But that storm is not from enemy, it's a sing of power and change you in you life. 
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From: "grandoautemsatanas@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected]
Date: 03/05/2016 04:28 (GMT+01:00)
To: [email protected]
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I'm Very New To Satanism and Need Help


  I'm 17. I was raised in a very Christian family and I've always felt out of place. I felt uneasy in their churches and found myself gradually become disgusted by the jaded hypocrisies they spewed. When I was going through the hardest parts of my life, I prayed to their god for relief, for help, for even a little comfort and got nothing in return. So recently, I turned to Satan for help. I prayed to Him once and immediately felt a warmth grow in my heart and spread throughout my body. For the first time in years, I felt at peace. Tonight, I decided to perform my self-dedication ritual. I was already ready to give myself to the Father. I shaved, bathed and meditated. A few hours ago, a storm blew in. Lightning cracked the sky and rain was pouring so hard, it seemed like it was going to flood. I took this as a sign and put on the best clothes I own, lit the only candle I could find and wrote down the prayer on a piece of paper. I recited it out loud, cut my hand with a sharp knife and signed the paper in my own blood. HP Maxine said on her website that in a self-dedication ritual one should let the paper burn in the candle so I did. The fire alarm went off, nearly waking up my very disgustingly Christian mother so I panicked, threw the candle in the sink and it ruined the paper. Its burnt remains are at the bottom of my trash can. I feel love and at peace now but I'm worried. It was such a disrespectful way to end the ritual that was supposed to begin my new life under Satan's guidance. Did Satan accept my dedication to Him?  Is He angry at me for how it ended? Should I try again tomorrow or is He angry at me for following such a blasphemous and hollow faith for so long...??