I'm soo confused

[quirkyisin]

For the past few months, I've been a Satanist. It was going really well until a month ago. I had found out Agaliarept was my guardian demon. I had made a stronger connection with Father Satan. I, and my recently converted cousin, were feeling the best we had in months(we had both been going through depression. Mine was pretty severe.)! I was doing my daily meditations, and everything. Then the depression started to come back. Slowly but surely I lost my ability to meditate. A few weeks later, I was suddenly able to see auras and talk to Agaliarept and Father without going into a trance. It left very quickly. I can still see strong auras--like my sister's black one with red...sparkles? It's pretty scary.--but that is the ONLY thing I can do. I've started to lose faith. I question my religion, and consider going agnostic or athiest. But I've kept convincing myself that no, this isn't wrong. Sorry, I'm rambling. Any idea what could possibly be going on? Oh, some other things that have happened... -I think about cutting myself at the most random times. -I lose memory of my life, oor feel as though this person(me) is someone I've read about, but I haven't met. -I go through VERY random bouts of depression and fatigue, then I move on to overbubbling joy and hyperactivity.. I'm sorry if I've rambled on anything. Please, what could possibly be going on?

 

[Seth R]

Maybe ur Bi-polar? Take a breather. No one is pressuring you in anything. Go ur own pace. Realize this. Not meditating won't help. Here's what to do: 1.) Spin and empower ur 3rd chakra(solar plexus). 2.) When finished visualize an intense white light all around you and lighting up inside of you. This will help. No if's or but's. Just do it. The results will speak for themselves. --- In [email protected], "quirkyisin" <quirkyisin@... wrote: For the past few months, I've been a Satanist. It was going really well until a month ago. I had found out Agaliarept was my guardian demon. I had made a stronger connection with Father Satan. I, and my recently converted cousin, were feeling the best we had in months(we had both been going through depression. Mine was pretty severe.)! I was doing my daily meditations, and everything. Then the depression started to come back. Slowly but surely I lost my ability to meditate. A few weeks later, I was suddenly able to see auras and talk to Agaliarept and Father without going into a trance. It left very quickly. I can still see strong auras--like my sister's black one with red...sparkles? It's pretty scary.--but that is the ONLY thing I can do. I've started to lose faith. I question my religion, and consider going agnostic or athiest. But I've kept convincing myself that no, this isn't wrong. Sorry, I'm rambling. Any idea what could possibly be going on? Oh, some other things that have happened... -I think about cutting myself at the most random times. -I lose memory of my life, oor feel as though this person(me) is someone I've read about, but I haven't met. -I go through VERY random bouts of depression and fatigue, then I move on to overbubbling joy and hyperactivity.. I'm sorry if I've rambled on anything. Please, what could possibly be going on?

 

[nick overholtzer]

you should try therapy. tell ur parents whats wrong. see a doctor. or read about depression. i dont see how you can "lose faith" after you can see auras and have talked with demons. i havent been able to do either. im for 2 years. seriously. this is serious. talk ith somebody. tell ur parents. see a doctor. To: [email protected]: [email protected]: Wed, 6 Jan 2010 00:55:29 +0000Subject: [Teens4Satan] I'm soo confused  For the past few months, I've been a Satanist. It was going really well until a month ago. I had found out Agaliarept was my guardian demon. I had made a stronger connection with Father Satan. I, and my recently converted cousin, were feeling the best we had in months(we had both been going through depression. Mine was pretty severe.)! I was doing my daily meditations, and everything. Then the depression started to come back. Slowly but surely I lost my ability to meditate. A few weeks later, I was suddenly able to see auras and talk to Agaliarept and Father without going into a trance. It left very quickly. I can still see strong auras--like my sister's black one with red...sparkles? It's pretty scary.--but that is the ONLY thing I can do. I've started to lose faith. I question my religion, and consider going agnostic or athiest. But I've kept convincing myself that no, this isn't wrong. Sorry, I'm rambling. Any idea what could possibly be going on? Oh, some other things that have happened...-I think about cutting myself at the most random times.-I lose memory of my life, oor feel as though this person(me) is someone I've read about, but I haven't met.-I go through VERY random bouts of depression and fatigue, then I move on to overbubbling joy and hyperactivity. .I'm sorry if I've rambled on anything. 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[quirkyisin]

Yeah me either. It doesn't make much sense. I've been improving a little over time, so I'll wait a while until telling my parents. They'd freak out and search my phone and computer history to find out what was happening, and I really don't need them finding out I'm a bisexual Satanist. But I'll try the meditation someone else recommended and see how it goes. --- In [email protected], nick overholtzer <perfectsky360@... wrote: you should try therapy. tell ur parents whats wrong. see a doctor. or read about depression. i dont see how you can "lose faith" after you can see auras and have talked with demons. i havent been able to do either. im for 2 years. seriously. this is serious. talk ith somebody. tell ur parents. see a doctor. To: [email protected] From: quirkyisin@... Date: Wed, 6 Jan 2010 00:55:29 +0000 Subject: [Teens4Satan] I'm soo confused For the past few months, I've been a Satanist. It was going really well until a month ago. I had found out Agaliarept was my guardian demon. I had made a stronger connection with Father Satan. I, and my recently converted cousin, were feeling the best we had in months(we had both been going through depression. Mine was pretty severe.)! I was doing my daily meditations, and everything. Then the depression started to come back. Slowly but surely I lost my ability to meditate. A few weeks later, I was suddenly able to see auras and talk to Agaliarept and Father without going into a trance. It left very quickly. I can still see strong auras--like my sister's black one with red...sparkles? It's pretty scary.--but that is the ONLY thing I can do. I've started to lose faith. I question my religion, and consider going agnostic or athiest. But I've kept convincing myself that no, this isn't wrong. Sorry, I'm rambling. Any idea what could possibly be going on? Oh, some other things that have happened... -I think about cutting myself at the most random times. -I lose memory of my life, oor feel as though this person(me) is someone I've read about, but I haven't met. -I go through VERY random bouts of depression and fatigue, then I move on to overbubbling joy and hyperactivity.. I'm sorry if I've rambled on anything. Please, what could possibly be going on?