I'm New and Looking for Guidance

[bluecrimsondestiny]

As a little background, I have tried to search for answers from the Catholic god, but have received nothing. Lucifer's story always kind of struck a chord with me and after some time I looked at the Catholic god and said "He is wrathful, vengeful, hateful, envious, and cruel. Why do people follow such a negative god?" I've been trying to find a religion that I felt comfortable with for years and in recent months I've become very agitated. I stayed away from exploring Satanism for a long time, fearing the Catholic god's judgement. I threw my hands in the air and said, "I can't keep avoiding this: I won't know all that I can if I am purposefully ignorant of such an ancient religion." So I came upon angelfire.com and spent hours deep into the night reading from my phone screen.I was absolutely stunned at how my soul hummed while reading. THIS WAS EXACTLY WHAT I HAD BEEN LOOKING FOR! Reincarnation, truth, knowledge, protection. I'm tired of being ignored and am ready to accept answers and truth. I'm tired of being scared of myself. I'm tired of being ignorant.I want to shout HAIL SATAN at the top of my lungs, but my family and specifically my father are devout Catholic/Christian. I was raised Catholic by my mother and have never been comfortable with many of their sentiments and beliefs.As a little story, when I was about four (I think) we were learning the story of Lucifer's fall where Michael banished him from Heaven. My sisters made him look evil, adding horns and a twisted beard. I colored his hair blonde and drew tears down his face. I think my mother about lost it.To finish up the massive introduction, my name is Michaela, I'm 20 years old, and I have never felt so-I don't even have a word to describe it. Dabbling into Satanism has already made me happier and I've only been really looking into for a few days. Having a path instead of wandering has improved my state quite dramatically. 

---also if my grandmother ever sees this I will probably be burned like a witch (at least she'll want to, anyway)

 

[call_me_something_else]

Hi Michaela. Study the JoyofSatan.com website as much as you can and, as soon as you can, dedicate your soul to Father Satan.

As for guidance, that's what this group is for. Be EXTREMELY CAREFUL to not expose yourself to outsiders. Keep your secrets and keep your personal information private.

There are challenges enough without being attacked by the enemy.

Dedicating myself to Satan was the best thing I've ever done.

Hail Father Satan forever!

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Dabbling doesn't make anyone happy, it brings negative results. Dabbling means a superficial interest, not being serious. In Spiritual Satanism it's highly advised not to dabble but to be serious and committed and dedicate yourself.

 

[lunasroyalportal]

Greetings
I agree with Firestarter. Try not to dabble, get a way more serious attitude with Satanism and you will definitely enjoy it even more
You won't be ignored by Us nor by Hell or any True Satanist! I'm glad you found this path and I hope that you find the beauty of this path as intrueging and as lovely as I have thus far. And just a btw your gran won't be wrong if she burns you as a witch XD because Satanists are witches. Hahah but do try not to tell anyone that won't understand.
Get a dedicated meditation schedule, dedicate yourself to Hell and meditate, do spells and live a lovely life ^^
Hail Satan!Hail Hell!

 

[bluecrimsondestiny]

I was wondering how long/ if I should wait before dedicating myself to Father Satan. I've found in the past few days to have become more energized. I have a few quick question, too:
Two days ago I suddenly felt very scared and worried and got very light-headed while at work. I've had anxiety attacks before, but this was different somehow. It must have been easy to tell because my co-workers made me sit down even though we were in the middle of a rush. I did some breathing exercises and asked Satan for help. I quickly started feeling better and was back to work after fifteen minutes and, though not 100%, I managed to get through the rest of the day I'm trying to figure out if it was some kind of psychic attack or just my health being awful. I haven't had an anxiety attack in years. I read that the enemy uses fear as a way of controlling us. I've been victim to it for many years, fearing instead of leading my life the way I want to.Any thoughts?
Thanks again.

 

[Yog Sothoth]

You should dedicate yourself as soon as you can. 


On Friday, May 22, 2015 6:00 PM, "bluecrimsondestiny@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I was wondering how long/ if I should wait before dedicating myself to Father Satan. I've found in the past few days to have become more energized. I have a few quick question, too:
Two days ago I suddenly felt very scared and worried and got very light-headed while at work. I've had anxiety attacks before, but this was different somehow. It must have been easy to tell because my co-workers made me sit down even though we were in the middle of a rush. I did some breathing exercises and asked Satan for help. I quickly started feeling better and was back to work after fifteen minutes and, though not 100%, I managed to get through the rest of the day I'm trying to figure out if it was some kind of psychic attack or just my health being awful. I haven't had an anxiety attack in years. I read that the enemy uses fear as a way of controlling us. I've been victim to it for many years, fearing instead of leading my life the way I want to.Any thoughts?
Thanks again.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Hi Bluecrimsondestiny, and welcome!The greys have used anxiety on me (although I don't get full out anxiety attacks) to keep me from doing things that were related to Spiritual Satanism or things that would improve my life. So yes,  it can happen.


On Saturday, May 23, 2015 7:14 PM, "bluecrimsondestiny@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I was wondering how long/ if I should wait before dedicating myself to Father Satan. I've found in the past few days to have become more energized. I have a few quick question, too:
Two days ago I suddenly felt very scared and worried and got very light-headed while at work. I've had anxiety attacks before, but this was different somehow. It must have been easy to tell because my co-workers made me sit down even though we were in the middle of a rush. I did some breathing exercises and asked Satan for help. I quickly started feeling better and was back to work after fifteen minutes and, though not 100%, I managed to get through the rest of the day I'm trying to figure out if it was some kind of psychic attack or just my health being awful. I haven't had an anxiety attack in years. I read that the enemy uses fear as a way of controlling us. I've been victim to it for many years, fearing instead of leading my life the way I want to.Any thoughts?
Thanks again.