I need mental help... I guess..

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Hey... Well I just signed up to this I don't know much about Satan really but I am interested and I thought maybe he could help me..

You see I'm in this state of mind.. I always want something but I don't know what I want, and I don't really want anything.
I'm going home soon to see my family and I know I should be happy, but I just feel so empty... Like nothing matters and my life, and this whole world is pointless, and I don't even know why I live. Sometimes I want to be powerful, and magnificent, at other times I just want peace of mind, but mostly I just feel.. Nothing. It's terrible. I don't know what is wrong with me and why. Also, I have a problem with school and with other people. I want to have friends or at least communicate with people.. But I don't. Whenever I go to school I just stand in a dark corner all break and I never talk to anyone, even to teachers. I am always so miserable, even when I smile and laugh... I'm always miserable and depressed, I feel like there is no place for me in this world, and I want to die sometimes, but then I feel like I don't want to die either. It's like, I never know what I really want, and I always look at things on the internet, I try to find something that I may want, and something I will strive to... But I never find anything. But I am very attracted to magic and I sometimes feel like there's power inside me.. This may sound weird but I can move water with my eyes... I found out when once I was standing on a bridge and staring at the river, then suddenly it started flowing the other way towards me... I heard that satan and his demons can help people find their inner powers.. Maybe, I should summon a demon to tell me what I really want, and what I should do?
Please help me someone.
I am very depressed and sad.

 

[roosterdf]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sweetlovelybunny@..." <sweetlovelybunny@... wrote:

Hey... Well I just signed up to this I don't know much about Satan really but I am interested and I thought maybe he could help me..

You see I'm in this state of mind.. I always want something but I don't know what I want, and I don't really want anything.
I'm going home soon to see my family and I know I should be happy, but I just feel so empty... Like nothing matters and my life, and this whole world is pointless, and I don't even know why I live. Sometimes I want to be powerful, and magnificent, at other times I just want peace of mind, but mostly I just feel.. Nothing. It's terrible. I don't know what is wrong with me and why. Also, I have a problem with school and with other people. I want to have friends or at least communicate with people.. But I don't. Whenever I go to school I just stand in a dark corner all break and I never talk to anyone, even to teachers. I am always so miserable, even when I smile and laugh... I'm always miserable and depressed, I feel like there is no place for me in this world, and I want to die sometimes, but then I feel like I don't want to die either. It's like, I never know what I really want, and I always look at things on the internet, I try to find something that I may want, and something I will strive to... But I never find anything. But I am very attracted to magic and I sometimes feel like there's power inside me.. This may sound weird but I can move water with my eyes... I found out when once I was standing on a bridge and staring at the river, then suddenly it started flowing the other way towards me... I heard that satan and his demons can help people find their inner powers.. Maybe, I should summon a demon to tell me what I really want, and what I should do?
Please help me someone.
I am very depressed and sad.

I don't think you need Demons to help you with that.
I know how you feel. I feel the same. That's because we're almost pure
water element. But unlike me you sound powerfull. So maybe try to balance your elements. Try many different meditations on JoS site. One of them will help for sure

 

[psychoanamull666]

I get that feeling sometimes,i think depression is what they call it now or something.But for me thats offset with moments where im happy and just kind of reckless.Finding your gaurdian demon will help,they can help you find your power and many other things.It sounds like you got plenty of power which is pretty cool and once you do power meditations itll help with confidence.And moving water with your eyes isnt weird its awesome lol.

 

[doom1n1gloom]

Well, I guess I can relate. Ive had suicidal thoughts in the past before, and I do have problems at school, though I have a small group of good friends. However, I started to feel that life was pointless. I mean, in the longrun, youre not changing things for long, since itll almost always revert to how it was sometime in the future, and you can never understand existence since you are limited to existence. I simply wanted to die because I thought there was nothing in life but false happiness. We all live in this controlled environment, everything goes good for us, the human race has lost the zest for life. But now I realize, there is a point in life and existence: Theres a whole new realm to explore, endless knowledge for us to take in within its boundaries. Truth and power, we work with our emotions on this plane of existence and use them as our strength. In the process we become alive again. Life will no longer coast by for us, and we'll attain our goals and overcome challenges, and enjoy every bit of it.

As for your abilities, Im quite shocked. Hydrokinesis is an extremely difficult type of telekinesis and requires a near lifetime to perfect. If you can change the direction of even a small stream, then you have serious potential. As in blowing people up and conjuring tornados with your mind potential. I suggest you do many power meditations for the next month or three before summoning a demon. I also recommend you start going into clairvoyance and clairaudience, it will make your sensory and communication much easier as well as generally improve your state of mind and awareness. Good luck, and I hope you can find meaning in life here.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sweetlovelybunny@..." <sweetlovelybunny@... wrote:

Hey... Well I just signed up to this I don't know much about Satan really but I am interested and I thought maybe he could help me..

You see I'm in this state of mind.. I always want something but I don't know what I want, and I don't really want anything.
I'm going home soon to see my family and I know I should be happy, but I just feel so empty... Like nothing matters and my life, and this whole world is pointless, and I don't even know why I live. Sometimes I want to be powerful, and magnificent, at other times I just want peace of mind, but mostly I just feel.. Nothing. It's terrible. I don't know what is wrong with me and why. Also, I have a problem with school and with other people. I want to have friends or at least communicate with people.. But I don't. Whenever I go to school I just stand in a dark corner all break and I never talk to anyone, even to teachers. I am always so miserable, even when I smile and laugh... I'm always miserable and depressed, I feel like there is no place for me in this world, and I want to die sometimes, but then I feel like I don't want to die either. It's like, I never know what I really want, and I always look at things on the internet, I try to find something that I may want, and something I will strive to... But I never find anything. But I am very attracted to magic and I sometimes feel like there's power inside me.. This may sound weird but I can move water with my eyes... I found out when once I was standing on a bridge and staring at the river, then suddenly it started flowing the other way towards me... I heard that satan and his demons can help people find their inner powers.. Maybe, I should summon a demon to tell me what I really want, and what I should do?
Please help me someone.
I am very depressed and sad.

 

[satinismygod12]

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "sweetlovelybunny@..." <sweetlovelybunny@... wrote:

Hey... Well I just signed up to this I don't know much about Satan really but I am interested and I thought maybe he could help me..

You see I'm in this state of mind.. I always want something but I don't know what I want, and I don't really want anything.
I'm going home soon to see my family and I know I should be happy, but I just feel so empty... Like nothing matters and my life, and this whole world is pointless, and I don't even know why I live. Sometimes I want to be powerful, and magnificent, at other times I just want peace of mind, but mostly I just feel.. Nothing. It's terrible. I don't know what is wrong with me and why. Also, I have a problem with school and with other people. I want to have friends or at least communicate with people.. But I don't. Whenever I go to school I just stand in a dark corner all break and I never talk to anyone, even to teachers. I am always so miserable, even when I smile and laugh... I'm always miserable and depressed, I feel like there is no place for me in this world, and I want to die sometimes, but then I feel like I don't want to die either. It's like, I never know what I really want, and I always look at things on the internet, I try to find something that I may want, and something I will strive to... But I never find anything. But I am very attracted to magic and I sometimes feel like there's power inside me.. This may sound weird but I can move water with my eyes... I found out when once I was standing on a bridge and staring at the river, then suddenly it started flowing the other way towards me... I heard that satan and his demons can help people find their inner powers.. Maybe, I should summon a demon to tell me what I really want, and what I should do?
Please help me someone.
I am very depressed and sad.

I am very sad also especially in school i just never talk and always seem depressed, i did feel this world was just nothing, and wished to die many times, i had good friends abandon me because the way i acted, i hope Father Satan will help you

Hail Enki!

 

[psychoanamull666]

Oh,you guys are water element.Thats cool,im a mix of air and fire i think.