After doing the most reading I ever have on a single topic, I decided to "contact" Satan.
I know how foolish it is for one who only just started to discover these ideas, but I felt if I was going to do anything with what I now know, I might as well ask Him first.
I asked for a sign that he could hear me. Nothing more. Something to show he would REALLY know I was here.
After the rather awkward conversation I sent him, I started to focus as I lay in bed sleeping. I focused on my energy alone. I see it as a blue fireball, and I was trying to get a good look. Trying to force it into one spot, to manipulate it. As I did this, my mind and body weakened, and I fell to sleep.
I awoke not more than 10 minuets later. My body was burning and I felt like lightning was traveling threw my nerves. Out of instinct I threw the covers off of me, and the feeling subsided.
This may have been anything. I'm not one to jump to any one conclusion, but it seems too strange a sensation to just let it be ignored.
Today I felt very paranoid, physically tired, yet me soul was full of energy. I want to know and experience more.
What do you guys think?
I am not committed as of now. I'm not one to just blindly jump into something so life altering, so I'm going to sit here and do more research.
