I feel very fearful - Vaccine conundrum, Antidepressants, Anxiety

[ac20]

I apologize for more or less posting about the same thing twice here on the forums, but I would appreciate any guidance anyone could offer me on my current situation.

I developed a myocardial reaction to the J&J booster a year and a half ago, and while I have healed extensively, it still causes some bothers now and then.
I am overdue for tetanus vaccine also by a year and a half. I only discovered this some days ago when I scratched myself with a scooter.

My conundrum is that I do not want tetanus, but I also do not want to risk my life with another vaccine. Not to mention I might eventually have to take it should I get a deep wound. I can't simply go about life crossing my fingers every time I scratch or cut myself on something.

I've spoken with family and friends, and done some digging online, but I can't find anything concrete on how safe it is to take it in my particular case.

I need to be careful about this moving forwards. Some days ago my parents forced me to take an antidepressant under threat of having me institutionalized. (I should research my legal rights here, as I am an adult.)
They did this because of how distressed I was about possibly having tetanus. Tomorrow I will tell them to forget about the tetanus thing, and that i am not concerned about that anymore. I now greatly fear that they may just force me to take it.
I was lying to them, telling them that yes, I am taking the antidepressant. But they found out, and now I have to take them for real.

For context, I have been going through a terrible struggle with anxiety, overthinking, and agoraphobia towards certain foods and beverages. My condition has improved, but I am still working on the agoraphobia aspect.
This whole tetanus situation has thrown everything off, and now I can't help but feel like my life is in danger, though I hope it's just the anxiety talking.

I've been doing AoP and other beginner workings for a month now after years of being an armchair Satanist. I hope it is not too late for me to live a life in service of Father Lucifer.

I'd appreciate any advice concerning the vaccine and the situation between myself and my parents.

 

[Henu the Great]

Legally, if you are not harming others or yourself you can not be institutionalized. You might want to consider setting firmer boundaries between yourself and your parents as you are an adult and responsible for yourself. If situation requires firmer action I would suggest a binding spell against them.

 

[ac20]

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Hah, yes, in hindsight, I made my parents out to be terrible, but in reality they're very intelligent and conscious people. I could try to explain the dangers of this medication, but they will ignore it, or just put me on a different type of antidepressant.
Things went very well today, we all agreed that I would take that vaccine when I feel ready. They seem to truly believe the meds are working, but really it was your post and everyone else's posts that calmed me down.
I am working on advancing spiritually so that I may better receive guidance from Satan and the Gods on what is best for me.

We did discuss seeing a holistic doctor. I am a bit hesitant to go see the holistic doctor, as the anxiety problem was initially THC induced, and later exasperated by alcohol. With THC induced anxiety, it is critical to avoid any and all intoxicants. So, I am a bit scared of taking something that could cause an intoxicating effect, and cause a relapse. I might just be overthinking this, but the doctor does use sugar alcohols as an ingredient. But it supposedly metabolizes differently than liquor, and its in small amounts.

I can't stress enough how much i am terrified of tetanus, and of the vax as well. Scared for my life. But I think the best course of action is to be brave, advance spiritually, strengthen my immune system, take basic precautions, until I have a more concrete answer on what to do.
I guess what I'm really looking for is a definitive answer on whether I can take that vax right now. It's up to me to find that answer though.

I can't thank you enough. You have replied to my hectic posts with great patience and knowledge. Thank you.

Legally, if you are not harming others or yourself you can not be institutionalized. You might want to consider setting firmer boundaries between yourself and your parents as you are an adult and responsible for yourself. If situation requires firmer action I would suggest a binding spell against them.

I'm considering the binding spell involving the poppit and hanging it on a tree, im unsure if there's another binding spell. Standing up to my parents is an issue ive long struggled with. I feel that even if they can't institutionalize me, they will find another way of forcing their decisions on me. I will work long term on making myself independent from them.

 

[Set666]

I apologize for more or less posting about the same thing twice here on the forums, but I would appreciate any guidance anyone could offer me on my current situation.

I developed a myocardial reaction to the J&J booster a year and a half ago, and while I have healed extensively, it still causes some bothers now and then.
I am overdue for tetanus vaccine also by a year and a half. I only discovered this some days ago when I scratched myself with a scooter.

My conundrum is that I do not want tetanus, but I also do not want to risk my life with another vaccine. Not to mention I might eventually have to take it should I get a deep wound. I can't simply go about life crossing my fingers every time I scratch or cut myself on something.

I've spoken with family and friends, and done some digging online, but I can't find anything concrete on how safe it is to take it in my particular case.

I need to be careful about this moving forwards. Some days ago my parents forced me to take an antidepressant under threat of having me institutionalized. (I should research my legal rights here, as I am an adult.)
They did this because of how distressed I was about possibly having tetanus. Tomorrow I will tell them to forget about the tetanus thing, and that i am not concerned about that anymore. I now greatly fear that they may just force me to take it.
I was lying to them, telling them that yes, I am taking the antidepressant. But they found out, and now I have to take them for real.

For context, I have been going through a terrible struggle with anxiety, overthinking, and agoraphobia towards certain foods and beverages. My condition has improved, but I am still working on the agoraphobia aspect.
This whole tetanus situation has thrown everything off, and now I can't help but feel like my life is in danger, though I hope it's just the anxiety talking.

I've been doing AoP and other beginner workings for a month now after years of being an armchair Satanist. I hope it is not too late for me to live a life in service of Father Lucifer.

I'd appreciate any advice concerning the vaccine and the situation between myself and my parents.

You're much mature now, so you can establish some stricter boundaries with your parents.

You can also do a biding spell to them. It is an idea indeed.

 

[Henu the Great]

I'm considering the binding spell involving the poppit and hanging it on a tree, im unsure if there's another binding spell. Standing up to my parents is an issue ive long struggled with. I feel that even if they can't institutionalize me, they will find another way of forcing their decisions on me. I will work long term on making myself independent from them.

All that is required is your mind. Binding can be achieved by evoking the rune ISA.