I feel confused and ashamed

[Solider of suns]

Hi, firstly I want to say how guilty I feel in myself when it comes to straying from the path of the gods and finding spiritual solutions elsewhere. At the same time I feel overwhelmed with the notion that Satan can read my thoughts at all times and that i can’t follow any other system of belief, with that said I know this is the right path it’s just hard you know? Giving up what I once thought and believed to be true. It’s like giving up a part of myself. I get attacked quite often for it. And whenever I try to get closer to the gods it’s feels in vein due to my xian programming I know it’s a hoax but my thoughts won’t let go of it leaving me very confused. I’m so scared that when I realize fully that there is a god and integrate it I will be tieing into xianity just because of my thought process. I hate that I stilll have lingering issues with it. What do I do?

 

[Padme]

Satan do not force us in anyway, he shows the path to truth.
If you do not believe in Spiritual Satanism anymore, Satan will not force you to stay.
I believe you want to leave because of the anxiety you feel; this is what we call Religious OCD. Satanism is not the path of fear or anxiety, we and Satan wants you to be free, not fearful.
I experienced something similar when i first find Paganism, but it is not about Gods but about our mind. People taught us to fear gods; Don't do this or you are going to hell etc...
This is not the case in Spiritual Satanism.
If you want to talk more, you can mail me; [email protected]

 

[Khem Nefermed]

Satan could read your thoughts. He doesn't do that. Satan has better things to do than look at the little decisions of every being out there. He's not watching over your every move, that is not how this works.
It's not that you can't follow any other system or belief. Anyone is free to do whatever they want, the Gods will not punish you for this, as long as you are not directly slandering them.
We share information about why Christianity and Islam are not good paths for one's life, based on lies, full of inconsistencies, and hatefully attacking Pagan cultures, symbols and Gods, because it is undeniable historical fact. If you choose to follow these programs despite knowing this info, you are free to do so, but there must be something wrong with how you think.
Excluding these systems and others like them, any other "system or belief" is valuable, and we encourage studying them. Many here are knowledgeable of the Vedas, Platonism, folk practices, and many more things. A lot of our practices are taken from all over the world, from spiritual people and spiritual societies that were all looking into the Truth.
You seem to think this path is dogma. Far from it. It is a practice that is guided by the Gods, and evolves as we understand more, look for answers, and uncover what was hidden in history.
The Gods promote searching for knowledge, not sheepishly following something because you "have to", and "will be punished if you don't".

 

[Solider of suns]

Thank you everyone here! I really appreciate it! Hail satanas I will follow your advice and thanks for breaking a few of the delusions

 

[Solider of suns]

Satan could read your thoughts. He doesn't do that. Satan has better things to do than look at the little decisions of every being out there. He's not watching over your every move, that is not how this works.
It's not that you can't follow any other system or belief. Anyone is free to do whatever they want, the Gods will not punish you for this, as long as you are not directly slandering them.
We share information about why Christianity and Islam are not good paths for one's life, based on lies, full of inconsistencies, and hatefully attacking Pagan cultures, symbols and Gods, because it is undeniable historical fact. If you choose to follow these programs despite knowing this info, you are free to do so, but there must be something wrong with how you think.
Excluding these systems and others like them, any other "system or belief" is valuable, and we encourage studying them. Many here are knowledgeable of the Vedas, Platonism, folk practices, and many more things. A lot of our practices are taken from all over the world, from spiritual people and spiritual societies that were all looking into the Truth.
You seem to think this path is dogma. Far from it. It is a practice that is guided by the Gods, and evolves as we understand more, look for answers, and uncover what was hidden in history.
The Gods promote searching for knowledge, not sheepishly following something because you "have to", and "will be punished if you don't".

Well said thank you!