I Cant Meditate anymore........

Tell your self you have to do it foot put up with your shiv just do it man! Hail satan!

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I of suicide, I the unlord, Im born again with snakes eyes. becoming godsize.

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From: allforenki <allforenki@...
To:
Date: Wed, 10 Jun 2009 03:23:31 AM +0000
Subject: I Cant Meditate anymore........

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

Hello there I'm a fellow weight lifter also if you go to a full gym they should have a sauna or steam room meditate in there its relaxing and if its stone perfect harmonics for vibrating runes I can honestlly say my life is one of a warriors to live and mayhaps die I am trying to get GED so that and i've been out of school for about 3 years I just up and left I got sick of the hypocrisy of everyone at my school. So hope that helps.

Well, my friend motivation can't help you right now....You have to get hard on yourself.....if you can't train your mind now you won't have future you wanted...Summer will be over but your life will not.....You have to face once again the same situations....

A king will not rest as soon as he ascends throne..he start working even hard to retrieve it.....

Like king you have ascended but don't descend until you have reached your goal....Try to protect your throne and you can only protect it through power and dedication...
Being a satanist you can achieve both.....


REMEMBER SATANIST IS BORN NOT MADE

You have that fortune of working under father satan..so utilize it...

if you quit now...you also die like a normal guy without knowing yourself fully and exploring yourself....And there will be no lose to earth or anyone.....cause We all have small time but earth has all time in galaxy...

And also every satanist is special.....You are a special, so we don't want to loose a satanist like you.

So quit being lazy and be energtic and start kicking those alien asses...



If i've spoke anything wrong please pradon me..


HAIL SATAN
HAIL ENKI

What the Hell?

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

It was only like 2 days of meditation i skipped. Last night at like 1:30am i just went into a trance and did a poweful meditation, this time i pushed it a little bit further than usual. It felt so awesome, i love the feeling of being powerful or at least feeling a powerful aura. The Main problem is waking up and going to bed. I have nothing to wake up to, no school, so i dont want to wake up. I usually stall until i get mad lol. Sleeping, i stall as well because i just dont feel like sleeping. I always meditate late in the day which is another problem.

I Shall waste no time, Ill meditate right NOW!

HAIL SATAN!

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@ wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!


It was only like 2 days of meditation i skipped. Last night at like 1:30am i just went into a trance and did a poweful meditation, this time i pushed it a little bit further than usual. It felt so awesome, i love the feeling of being powerful or at least feeling a powerful aura. The Main problem is waking up and going to bed. I have nothing to wake up to, no school, so i dont want to wake up. I usually stall until i get mad lol. Sleeping, i stall as well because i just dont feel like sleeping. I always meditate late in the day which is another problem.

I Shall waste no time, Ill meditate right NOW!

HAIL SATAN!
Hi This shit happens !

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IF you had a Great meditation experience & the next day
you just cant ....???????
Well personaly after a working I feel tired & need some rest
Just RELAX for a while & watch a movie or WHATEVER
& Take it from there
(by the way )I KNOW what it feels like :"am I the only
Satanist in the fucking world,? " THAT feeling too takes a LOT
of energy away
AVE SATANAS

I'm the opposite, I'm in high school, and, I have decided to hold off starting the meditation until school's out. I think the summer is going to be a great time to learn and grow.

--- In , "ceiling.down" <deadlytickle@... wrote:

I'm the opposite, I'm in high school, and, I have decided to hold off starting the meditation until school's out. I think the summer is going to be a great time to learn and grow.

Hey, bad Idea let me explain. Everyone is going to have to go through the basic learning of energy controlling and drawing, Trances, visualization, and other essential skills at the start. If you start in the summer, you will waste alot of time learning the basics before even seriously begin empowering yourself. Dont you want to make the most of the summer time? Start the beginner meditations now and become adept at the essential skills. Then when summer starts, begin empowering your aura and chakras. This is my suggestion. :)

HAIL SATAN!

So what you are saying is this. You now have all the time in the world to concentrate on these things. Yet you choose to do nothing.
Think about that for a while.

--- In , "Elspyth Abendroth" <x.carpediem@... wrote:

What the Hell?



--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@ wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

--- In , "magister.willard" <magister.willard@... wrote:

So what you are saying is this. You now have all the time in the world to concentrate on these things. Yet you choose to do nothing.
Think about that for a while.

HS/88!!




--- In , "Elspyth Abendroth" <x.carpediem@ wrote:

What the Hell?



--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@ wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

Yeah thats the Point, I have So much time that i just wanna sleep and be lazy with most of it because i havent been able to do this before. I am meditating again though :) and its the start of the waning moon, time to work for Satan!

Hail Satan

Sometimes there's a lot to be said for the tiny phrase, "just do it." It's not necessary to always give in to lack of motivation. And it doesn't even take long ...

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

--- In , "magister.willard" <magister.willard@ wrote:

So what you are saying is this. You now have all the time in the world to concentrate on these things. Yet you choose to do nothing.
Think about that for a while.

HS/88!!




--- In , "Elspyth Abendroth" <x.carpediem@ wrote:

What the Hell?



--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@ wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!




Yeah thats the Point, I have So much time that i just wanna sleep and be lazy with most of it because i havent been able to do this before. I am meditating again though :) and its the start of the waning moon, time to work for Satan!

Hail Satan

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Oh, okay! I will then. Thanks!

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

--- In , "ceiling.down" <deadlytickle@ wrote:

I'm the opposite, I'm in high school, and, I have decided to hold off starting the meditation until school's out. I think the summer is going to be a great time to learn and grow.


Hey, bad Idea let me explain. Everyone is going to have to go through the basic learning of energy controlling and drawing, Trances, visualization, and other essential skills at the start. If you start in the summer, you will waste alot of time learning the basics before even seriously begin empowering yourself. Dont you want to make the most of the summer time? Start the beginner meditations now and become adept at the essential skills. Then when summer starts, begin empowering your aura and chakras. This is my suggestion. :)

HAIL SATAN!

Show more...Show less...Show more...

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

it is during the time when you feel like you cant do something is the time to try harder just like lifting weights. these are no laughting matters just keep at it and you'll break thru this funk to where the meditations will come easier.

--- In , "allforenki" <allforenki@... wrote:

I have no motivation to do anything. I suddenly am totally satisfied with my life because summer came and i can do whatever without the worry of High School. This sucks. I find it hard to lift weights as well. I Fail lol


Any suggestions? Motivational speeches or anything? lol


HAIL SATAN!

This may sound weird and crazy but let me explain my experience i had. OK yeah i have been lazy (i figured it wasnt laziness but i kept stalling to meditate until i couldnt) but really wanted to meditate and empower myself really bad. It was like a struggle, i was constantly disappointed in myself. This only lasted about 4 days. The first 2 days i just couldnt meditate, i was just too lazy (stall too much) and would stall all day but I DIDNT CHOOSE to. Its hard to explain, i wanted to meditate but couldnt help but but stall all day.
Then on the third day i forced myself to meditate, it felt like it was doing something against my will, weird! The next day was when i realized it all. I said F'it im gonna meditate then i dont have to worry the rest of the day. As i went into a trance i got this feeling. The feeling was for me not to meditate and to do something else besides meditating. This feeling was pushing me away from meditating the entire time. I went into the trance and looked into myself and the the energy. It was green and dark like neon or plasma, it had an ugly vibe to it. I pulled it out of me, shit took a while! i directed all the energy to a place where i store negative energy (woohoo free destruction energy). Then i immediately felt better! I want to meditate right now but im just waiting for the house to quiet down.

Hail SATAN!!!

A deposit of destructive energy? Nice thinking allforenki! When I'm able to, I think I'll do the same.