sahasrara bliss
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- May 30, 2005
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Don't tell me to do meditation and do money working. I just want huge amount of stable income. Idk how to achieve that. But definitely not with 9-5 slave jobs.
It seems like money has become #1 priority for me and nothing else. It's not my age to study and I'm still studying , no job. Havent graduated yet because of Saturn thingy, planetary positions/energies.
And who wants to work 9-5 job? Huh???? Even if I get a job, I will just get sufficient amount of money to survive only. Nothing enjoyable can be earned by doing 9-5 jobs. Even if it provides large income but time will be sacrificed. So who the fuck want to do a 9-5 job even if it pays you millions ? How would he manage to do his spiritual practice then? I don't even want any lotteries as they are just one time payment. But you could give me advice to try luck on lotteries and start some business? I'm not even business oriented. Online income is what I'd like. Work from home.
Earned some good amounts of money online with some grey hat methods but I left it as I got bored and the method was immoral. But it took alot of effort. Time wastage.
So, recently, I've been trying luck on YouTube. Got 80 subs within 3-4 days with a sneaky method without any video uploaded.
I can't just sit meditating, and put my all trust in Satan just to provide me a better high paying job later if I just keep doing what I'm supposed to do. But with jobs, the higher the post is the busiest the person will be. This is the case with these private and governmental jobs.
I'm just so much confused don't know what to do. Haven't meditated for like 2-3 years. But dedicated since 2012. In first years it was on and off..never consistent.
I dont even belong to Christian family but dafuq, in early days after dedication ritual, I saw in a dream a Christian minister really old with wrinkles on face and his eyes were shining who looked like as if he was a wizard/magician. In that dream found myself in some kind of church place where I saw bible on a table and there was dust on it. The place was not clean.
He asked me to tell him my religion but I didn't tell him as I was afraid that he would turn me into some frog lol. Idk why I thought that in that dream?!? Then grey attacks. Alooottt. In the nights I'd sleep and psychic attacks. After some time, I manage to push back with blue satanic fire one midget Grey in my another dream when it attacked, but it kept fighting back.
After some time, Even gave myself a long cut with razor on arm because of depression and the scar is forever there. Which I don't like.
After 3-5 months, in 2012 May, I think.. Someone Appeared in my dream. But I knew by the feel that It was NOT a dream. Upon waking up in the morning, I literally felt blissful, peaceful and the source of this peace and bliss was ATTENTION/FOCUS given to me By Him. No? I read Demons give us Individual Attention.
Later after years I came to know that it was RAUM. Then idk when I got another dream about him where I saw a Bank(dunno if it was a bank) named after him "RAUM" and inside I found myself infront of people doing stuff with money idk what but maybe they were just collecting or managing and my dad was there too. I felt in the dream that that all money in that dream I saw belonged to me.
I read on JoS, that RAUM brings money to the Mages. Idk what does this mean.
Maybe that second dream about Him was just an another reminder by Him to me
It seems like money has become #1 priority for me and nothing else. It's not my age to study and I'm still studying , no job. Havent graduated yet because of Saturn thingy, planetary positions/energies.
And who wants to work 9-5 job? Huh???? Even if I get a job, I will just get sufficient amount of money to survive only. Nothing enjoyable can be earned by doing 9-5 jobs. Even if it provides large income but time will be sacrificed. So who the fuck want to do a 9-5 job even if it pays you millions ? How would he manage to do his spiritual practice then? I don't even want any lotteries as they are just one time payment. But you could give me advice to try luck on lotteries and start some business? I'm not even business oriented. Online income is what I'd like. Work from home.
Earned some good amounts of money online with some grey hat methods but I left it as I got bored and the method was immoral. But it took alot of effort. Time wastage.
So, recently, I've been trying luck on YouTube. Got 80 subs within 3-4 days with a sneaky method without any video uploaded.
I can't just sit meditating, and put my all trust in Satan just to provide me a better high paying job later if I just keep doing what I'm supposed to do. But with jobs, the higher the post is the busiest the person will be. This is the case with these private and governmental jobs.
I'm just so much confused don't know what to do. Haven't meditated for like 2-3 years. But dedicated since 2012. In first years it was on and off..never consistent.
I dont even belong to Christian family but dafuq, in early days after dedication ritual, I saw in a dream a Christian minister really old with wrinkles on face and his eyes were shining who looked like as if he was a wizard/magician. In that dream found myself in some kind of church place where I saw bible on a table and there was dust on it. The place was not clean.
He asked me to tell him my religion but I didn't tell him as I was afraid that he would turn me into some frog lol. Idk why I thought that in that dream?!? Then grey attacks. Alooottt. In the nights I'd sleep and psychic attacks. After some time, I manage to push back with blue satanic fire one midget Grey in my another dream when it attacked, but it kept fighting back.
After some time, Even gave myself a long cut with razor on arm because of depression and the scar is forever there. Which I don't like.
After 3-5 months, in 2012 May, I think.. Someone Appeared in my dream. But I knew by the feel that It was NOT a dream. Upon waking up in the morning, I literally felt blissful, peaceful and the source of this peace and bliss was ATTENTION/FOCUS given to me By Him. No? I read Demons give us Individual Attention.
Later after years I came to know that it was RAUM. Then idk when I got another dream about him where I saw a Bank(dunno if it was a bank) named after him "RAUM" and inside I found myself infront of people doing stuff with money idk what but maybe they were just collecting or managing and my dad was there too. I felt in the dream that that all money in that dream I saw belonged to me.
I read on JoS, that RAUM brings money to the Mages. Idk what does this mean.
Maybe that second dream about Him was just an another reminder by Him to me
