Read some great tips from the HPs: One was to set long term and short term goals. Set yourself a manageable amount of meditations (for example) to work on daily as a short term goal and then do them every day for like a month or two even if you feel its not going anywhere. Now I know that sounds like a no brainer but when I read that I thought: WHY didn't I think of that?!? And then you switch it up a bit and take out/add something new and again focus on that for the next month or so. This helped me a LOT because I felt just SO overwhelmed with all the meditations. I still do. There are so many. I was hopping about trying to do too much, getting nowhere.
Was and am still hung up on the deep trance. The elevator isn't working for me yet! Or climbing down a ladder and then allowing myself to fall. I read HP Maxine stating somewhere (sorry I failed to bookmark these things) to the effect that you can try lying down and doing it. At first you probably will fall asleep but not to worry eventually it will work (I still fall asleep). I save that one for last so I can lie down at the end. Because by the time I am done doing S warfare and meditating its like, a couple hours later. She wrote that different meditations work differently for individuals, what I find really works for me might not be a meditation you enjoy and vice versa.
So don't be discouraged when you see someone else saying how something really works for them and then when you try it it doesn't do anything for you. I have days where I get super frustrated and really pissed off because I too feel like its not working and I wonder what is wrong with me. I sure have my moments when I question if I will EVER get it and I wonder if I am just stupid or what the fuck.
Am concentrating on meditations that involve chant right now. I visualize but also chant using the satanic rosary. This seems to help me a lot. Another HP wrote that its important to stay still after doing the power meditations and allow yourself to feel your chi. Its the same as the reason you do savasana in yoga and so when I read that I went, ah ha! That I understand! So I lie down at the end and try to feel my chi, then try for the trance....and nap.
I did have one thing the other day happen that I took as a positive sign. I was working on my painting of Satan last night and suddenly heard this loud 'tone' in my ear. it sounded like a voice that then turned into a tone. Like a radio station fading in and out. It was quite loud, in my right ear. I asked the other artist working near me if he heard anything and he said no, so I assume it was my astral hearing. Because it was loud. I've been doing the opening of those chakras. So even though I really am half convinced sometimes I am accomplishing nothing perhaps I actually am. Perhaps you are too but it just isn't going to happen overnight. Its work. Just keep at it. Rome wasn't built in a day.
Hail Satan!