Your relationship with Satan starts inside. Nobody here can protect you or act truly as a mediator. The more I go on the more ways I realize by which I can reach Satan, though He stays the same. Judging by your name, maybe you put too much effort into the appearances and not the experiences so to speak. Just relax and meditate to the best of your ability, silence all your thoughts for 5 minutes every day as in void meditation at the very least. I summoned Amdusias years ago when I first started to ask him to help me with music in return for a favour. My house gently shook, I got very nervous, and I wasn't sure if I did it right, but I felt strongly like it worked anyways. The result? I learned to play 10 different instruments in four years before discovering Hitler's message and dedicating as a warrior.
If you are not doing reverse torah rituals at this time, the Gods may be wary to help you. Satan doesn't do much for people who don't do anything themselves. They are very very busy. Its not about "proving" yourself, its just fair.
Hope you find your way and have faith in the truth first and foremost. It is hard going from being brainwashed, and we have all been brainwashed at one point, to stepping on this path.