HELP i'm completely new, not even really a Satanist yet. someone hel

[d_shimanek]

hi.uuum, i'm not a Satanist, but i'm extremely curious about it. not even curious, i want to learn as much as i can because i'm feeling a strong pull to join. i'm just very hesitant because i was raised Christian. i was Christian most of my life, then in middle school i became and Wiccan. then i didn't really have a religion and am now back to Christianity again. but then a friend directed me to joyofsatan.com and it really opened my eyes. i always knew that the stories and characters in the Bible were based on older Pagan ones, i just didn't want to believe it. and now i'm starting to. but again i'm hesitant because i have that constant fear of going to Hell. i know it's absurd, but there you go.
i just REALLY need someone to help and guide me throughout this experience. and i know this is a teen group, but you all know a lot more about it than me. if anyone could answer some of my questions, that'd be fantastic! i won't put any in this post because there are simply to many. but if anybody could email me or something, that'd be great.