I am new to spiritual satanism and I need some help. I want to start off by saying that I was a catholic but gave it up several months ago. I don't really remember how I started researching spiritual satanism but the more I learn the more (I'm not sure how to say it) attracted I am to it. Ever since I learned about guardian demons I've become obsessed in finding mine. I don't know how to describe it but I feel a longing of sorts...
I just want to say that even when I was a strong strict catholic I never thought of Satan as evil. I never had a reason to believe that he was evil no matter what others told me.
I have tried meditation and the Ouija but when I start I become impatient. I feel like I'll go mad if I don't find my guardian soon!!
Please help me! If someone can help me I would be forever grateful!!
*sorry about my writing. English isn't my first language. <:)
