Gender and Sexuality I am confused

[darkmonkey666]

I want to post here.

I started a major working to free myself of xtianity and a hang up I had and more and more this came to the surface and has dominated my mind a lot recently.

I tend to think very different than most people I know. I do have sun trine moon exact in water signs as well as Pisces intercepted in my first house and a strong Pluto in scorpio I am a man but I hate our roles in society I want to break feee. I have always valued the more feminine emotional side of things. I am not at all trans though I don't hate my gender but I don't like our role in society. I love people for the most part. I am nice to most people I understand people's emotions. Almost always people end up spilling their emotional problems to me sometimes quickly and feel calm happy or understood. I may never have had a lot of friends but then again I didn't seek it I will try soon see what happens.

. I always am able to read people and also I am kind of a healer. I think about it and people claim they feel better or have been healed of stuff mostly minor but I heal them not in the way described on the JOS it's hard to describe I am not even that powerful or advanced yet people claim I have this gift. It has to do with Pluto. I had this before I was Satanist.

Most men are not like this they do not understand the emotional side of things I am creative too I do poetry and writing.

I understand emotions is my point. I am in tune with my emotions and others actually I am balanced.

Sometimes I feel my gender is a symbol of oppression because of how we have treated women the way we cause a lot of violence and crime more so than women. Most murderers are men especially serial killers. Most rapists are men. I don't represent this.

I hope I am not a capitalist symbol of oppression I am human first and foremost. I am not a slave I am not a commodity and I will not be worked to death.

Thank you for listening I just needed to get that out it kind of eats at me.

 

[Dariak]

First of all, nothing male has to do with the oppression of women. This is purely the enemies fault.. they’ve always tried to suppress the feminine side in men, and also femininity itself and tried to link to weakness. When it’s not weak at all.

As a man I relate to what you’re saying, I’ve got a lot of water in my chart. So I have a lot of feminine aspects to me. I’m a creative, I write poetry, stories, I can feel people’s emotions and give any person one look and I can “feel” what kind of person they are or what their motives are. This isn’t weak, this is a strength. Not only can I read others like a book, but I can tell you what their weaknesses are.. I know exactly how to strike if you present yourself as an enemy to me.

There’s a lot of power you can draw from the feminine. I’ve learned this through martial arts, often times I get tired during intense training, my body hurts and it feels as if battery acid is pumping through my veins and I just want to quit, but I don’t. I tap into the raw emotions, I push everything, happiness, anger, pain.. all of it.. I push it into my training and I don’t quit.

 

[darkmonkey666]

This may also be due to the men I have met. I really havent met any that didn't want to use me for something and they never accepted me I always had to pretend somewhere with them.

 

[Luna Black]

It doesn't seem you are confused at all about gender or sexuality you told us you are a bisexual man with a sensitive side. Just avoid assholes and jerks and try to get friends and a partner that are understanding and supportive. And that's it really.