Doubts

[Akitu]

Greetings,


Sometimes I fear the gods were offended. In the past, I helped other esoteric groups because I didn't know the truth, I was discovering the Gods and spirituality and I Obviously was in a very early step of my path. Sometimes they even convinced me that JoS/ToZ was something negative, so I thought it wasn't a good site and not appropriate Satanism, but then I literally rediscovered it. I did everything I could to understand, and now it's my family, and absolutely my cult, and a very important part of my life. Before, of course, I sometimes spoke badly of it to others, but because I thought it was neo-Nazi and negative. I didn't know. I was scared. Do you think the gods were offended? Ultimately, I think that if they had been offended, they wouldn't have helped me discover the Truth, but sometimes I'm afraid. In the end, I can say that I harshly criticized and went against these false esoteric groups, even before Joining ToZ; I had already realized their falsehoods.

Another thing I regret is that a friend of mine, who had distanced himself from Satanism but had started with JoS years ago, came to me. At the time, I was part of a small group of people who practiced demonolatry or other false forms of Satanism. At that time, he was getting interested in Satanism again, but the demonolaters told me Satanism was a mild version of Demon worship, so I recommended demonolatry to him. I was truly influenced by bad people, and they made me say and do things I would never do now convincing me that was the real true path to follow. That said, in the end, he didn't even get close to demonolatry, and ultimately, nothing, and left every form of spiritualy (unfortunately he had been influenced by christian influences too, angelic practitioners before coming to me). He remained as he was. I regret this; he could perhaps have retraced his satanic footsteps. My intention was obviously to help him...I hope the Gods can have Mercy, what do you think?

thanks

 

[Disciple of the Serpent]

Greetings,


Sometimes I fear the gods were offended. In the past, I helped other esoteric groups because I didn't know the truth, I was discovering the Gods and spirituality and I Obviously was in a very early step of my path. Sometimes they even convinced me that JoS/ToZ was something negative, so I thought it wasn't a good site and not appropriate Satanism, but then I literally rediscovered it. I did everything I could to understand, and now it's my family, and absolutely my cult, and a very important part of my life. Before, of course, I sometimes spoke badly of it to others, but because I thought it was neo-Nazi and negative. I didn't know. I was scared. Do you think the gods were offended? Ultimately, I think that if they had been offended, they wouldn't have helped me discover the Truth, but sometimes I'm afraid. In the end, I can say that I harshly criticized and went against these false esoteric groups, even before Joining ToZ; I had already realized their falsehoods.

Another thing I regret is that a friend of mine, who had distanced himself from Satanism but had started with JoS years ago, came to me. At the time, I was part of a small group of people who practiced demonolatry or other false forms of Satanism. At that time, he was getting interested in Satanism again, but the demonolaters told me Satanism was a mild version of Demon worship, so I recommended demonolatry to him. I was truly influenced by bad people, and they made me say and do things I would never do now convincing me that was the real true path to follow. That said, in the end, he didn't even get close to demonolatry, and ultimately, nothing, and left every form of spiritualy (unfortunately he had been influenced by christian influences too, angelic practitioners before coming to me). He remained as he was. I regret this; he could perhaps have retraced his satanic footsteps. My intention was obviously to help him...I hope the Gods can have Mercy, what do you think?

thanks

It's up to him to take the right steps in the right direction.

It's not your responsability.

If you wish to help people to know the Gods, you should ask about joining Outreach.

Sadly many people are too lost, we must focus on those who have potential and are really interested, then these will do their walk in the Path.

For the rest, past belong to the past, there are no reasons to not move forward.

 

[OuroborphicMystery]

The Gods don't have such fragile egoes that They take offense at the smallest slight. Granted, what you did and said was technically "bad", but all of what you said is very, very mild - especially in comparison to what some lowlives who genuinely are out to hurt us and sincere truth-seekers (though they always fail).

Yours was just an honest mistake. The Gods are not petty beings. As long as you right yourself and decide on walking the correct path, and make a heartfelt effort, that's all that matters. We are not talking about some truly egregious, blatant and unforgivable, irreversible harm done or attempted to the Path of the Gods or those who walk it. Though, if you feel the need to, you can do a Ritual to the Gods to vent your feelings, frustrations and contrition if you want - this would purely be about you and a way to "finalize" the situation and assuage your own guilt, I am not at all saying that the Gods expect this kind of thing or anything.

Oh and, lastly, I disagree slightly with Brother Disciple of the Serpent. While it's certainly unlikely, unnecessary and even undesirable that you would go door to door and praise Father Zev to every last individual soul you wrongly slandered Him to in your ignorance, if you feel regret about your friend in particular, perhaps you could talk to this friend of yours now that you know better, and are more aware. It is indeed not your responsibility to see who turns to the light or not, but you could just make an effort for the sake of your friend, if nothing else. I wouldn't say this is required either, but we all know that we care more about the decisions of a single person near and dear to our hearts more than those of 100 random strangers.

Best of luck, and get off your knees. The Gods do not want your self-pity. If you feel bad, just use it as fuel to improve and become a man (I am guessing) They can be proud of, as Their creation.

 

[Akitu]

It's up to him to take the right steps in the right direction.

It's not your responsability.

If you wish to help people to know the Gods, you should ask about joining Outreach.

Sadly many people are too lost, we must focus on those who have potential and are really interested, then these will do their walk in the Path.

For the rest, past belong to the past, there are no reasons to not move forward.

Thanks Brother, about that friend of mine, Ok, so it was his choice. He had a chance years ago with ToZ, but He let it go. When He came to me, a girl that I used to talk to , said to me "tell him the Gods don't want him", and I said him so (btw I was sad for him) , than after a while I talked to him about demonolatry....Bad influences really are strong sometimes, I thought this stupid girl was more advanced and communicating with the Gods....so I listened to her, but Now I know Gods wouldn't say this. That's the past, Thanks again, I will move forward with my Family,

Just yesterday I had a wonderful meditation and then A powerful dream