dont forget me when i come crying to heavens door

[xanny]

i thought the title would grab attention based off my favorite satanist.

anyways,

i struggle with life, i suppose, i was raised christian and do feel a connection with God but i also feel a connection with lucifer as well. its strange. i believe in the spiritual realm but i also struggle with that.

i have tried the dedication once and experienced things but never went through with it but i did have a spiritual experience. im not sure where i stand, im gay so im not sure where that helps. i have been around spiritual people from church and they have said i have a high calling from God. but, i suppose, its hard to believe that when the church, and my family, hasn't been so accepting.

 

[xanny]

ill delete this in 24 hours lol

 

[AFODO]

Satan is God. He always have been in ancient religions and that's it. Christianity is a very new thing and doesn't have to do anything with God.