Do I have to start over?

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Hi, everybody. I'm back after being gone for quite awhile, and I have a lot of concerns I'd like to bring up. I'm not looking for judgment, but I'd really, really appreciate it if someone could just answer me honestly and as detailed as possible. I won't post all of my questions in this one post, but I'll try to spread it out a little so I don't bombard all of you.
Firstly, concerning my personal situation. I started meditating and doing yoga with Joy of Satan since February of last year. From then until about maybe September, I meditated twice a day, everyday, doing Hatha and Kundalini yoga daily as well. But things got kind of rough around September. I was working night shift, and I started getting exhausted. I hardly ever saw the Sun, and every day was so tiring for me to the point where this would be my day: wake up, go to work, come home, and sleep. I had no energy for meditation or yoga, and when I tried to do it, I'd either sleep through my alarm to get me up in time to do it, or I'd fall asleep while meditating. It was horrible, and as a result I started meditating less, doing it once a day with yoga, then without yoga, and finally not at all. 
I felt myself getting weaker every day. Luckily, I eventually switched back to day shift, and now I have much more energy, but I didn't get back on a consistent schedule. I would maybe meditate like I used to, two meditation sessions a day as well as Hatha and Kundalini yoga, but only a couple days in a row, and then I would stop meditating for sometimes weeks at a time. I even reached such a low point that I smoked marijuana multiple times with friends, just to try it. But, it only started making things worse. 
Fortunately, I stopped smoking weed shortly after I first tried it, but I'm afraid of what sort of damage it may have caused to my soul. I really, really want to start meditating and doing yoga again. Nothing has ever made me feel so good in my life. Weed didn't even come anywhere close. I want to better myself, mind, body and soul. I want to be powerful. I want to thrive. I want to achieve Magnum Opus as soon as I possibly can. But I don't know where to start. So, finally I'll ask the question I'm really seeking answers to right now: where do I start? Should I simply pick up where I left off, doing two meditation sessions and two yoga sessions a day, or should I start completely over from scratch, back at the 40 day program? 
Also, how can I find out what kind of damage I've done to my soul, and typically how long will it take to heal it with consistent power meditation? I'm so scared that I've messed myself up beyond repair, but I'm going off the hope that if I still have the will to fight, Father Satan will guide me and I can fix myself.

 

[thisisafalsealias]

Hi Wrenthewolfie

You'll probably be back to normal from weed when marijuana clears from your blood in 40 days

I think you are generally supposed to reach certain stages that you will bounce back to, and the general theme of the great work is raising the stage your self is on so that when you re-open all your chakras and align you are right back to that stage. I would suggest try to get back to the state of feeling how you did when you were at your prime before the night-shifts started and then move upwards from that state emotionally and spiritually. If you have to do the 40 day meditation again it wouldnt hurt but it depends on where you were before

I started night shifts myself after a year of really hardcore meditation and progress and it slowed me down a bit. So I wasn't able to raise up significantly after but I could always bounce-back to the most powerful state I last had with practice, and build on myself from there. I'm further now but also older and gotta adapt to the stress levels of someone my age so naturally spirituality has to be a little secondary now, rather than having the privilege of living at the parents' places and doing this stuff 16 hours a day. I don't really know where you're at but I'm guessing you're probably around the same age so I would say use discretion and see if you can get back to the mental and spiritual clarity you had at your absolute prime and build from there with the knowledge you have today.

Cheers

 

[shade00013]

I have been through this to the exstant you have but I’ll do my best!

Start off but just drifting into a deep trance and then go through all your chakras if you can find them, spin them and feel the actual shape of it spinning then you shouldn’t have to worry about reopening them, focus on the hands and feet try breathing energy through them if you can do this then you should be fine after that focus on your eyes and ears see if you can hear and see to any extent if you can’t do any of this at all you may just want to start over from scratch but don’t worry too much because you’ll get back to where you were before at a faster rate then before!… but if you can do all of this the I’d suggest vibrating
LAUM on Root chakra
VAUM on Sacral chakra
RAUM on Solar and hip chakras
YAUM on Heart and should chakras
HAUM on Throat and ear chakras
AUM on inner eye and third eye chakras
MAUM on crown chakra
To an extent that your comfortable to on your your chakras to aid with clearing them out and empowering them a few times a day… but don’t just jump staight into what you used to do or you’ll blow a fuse… start out small and build it back up! Hope this helps! XD