Depression and meditation

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I'm really lost as to what to do. My meditations are becoming difficult to do. I'm exhausted almost all of the time and when I meditate I have to rush to a certain extent to prevent myself from falling asleep while doing it. Because of all this it's difficult to visualize things or even feel energy. I've been in an abusive relationship for quite some time but I can't just leave (it's a very complicated situation) and I feel like that could possibly be feeding into my exhaustion and depression. But I'm not worried about the depression in itself. I'm most worried about how my soul is going to react to all this.. Are there negative consequences for rushing like that? I've only been doing it to prevent myself from collapsing during meditation. I really don't want all my progress to go to waste.. Please help me out. What do I do?

 

[L W]

Why cant you leave the relationship? I understand rough circumstances, but allowing yourself to stay in a toxic situation will lead to such things as exhaustion and hopelessness. Living with a psychic vampire is an incredibly dangerous situation to stay in, and one I have dealt with my entire life. 
Perhaps you are overexerting yourself in your meditations. The body and soul can only take so much at one time, as our abilities have been horribly muted from centuries of degradation and curses.
What kind of abuse is taking place (physical, emotional, spirital, all three)? 
How long have you been meditating and are you on a program? 
Are you of age to legally leave your home?
I have been chronically depressed since I was 8 years old. It has only been in the last year (with Satan) that I have made groundbreaking strides in overcoming it. You must not let it control you, for simply worrying about something like depression is only feeding it the energy it needs to keep its hold over you, and it sounds to me like this person you are with is a big contribution. Sorrow is natural so long as there is reason to be sorrowful, but we must not let our emotions rule over us. After all they are there to help us learn and get past obstacles, not drag us down and imprison us in our own grief.

I am not overly knowledgeable but I will help as best I can.




On Monday, February 13, 2017 8:09 PM, "wrenthewolfie@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  I'm really lost as to what to do. My meditations are becoming difficult to do. I'm exhausted almost all of the time and when I meditate I have to rush to a certain extent to prevent myself from falling asleep while doing it. Because of all this it's difficult to visualize things or even feel energy. I've been in an abusive relationship for quite some time but I can't just leave (it's a very complicated situation) and I feel like that could possibly be feeding into my exhaustion and depression. But I'm not worried about the depression in itself. I'm most worried about how my soul is going to react to all this.. Are there negative consequences for rushing like that? I've only been doing it to prevent myself from collapsing during meditation. I really don't want all my progress to go to waste.. Please help me out. What do I do?

 

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1. You should do the possitive afirmations (often possibly..)2. You should using Sun energy; even if you can't see chacras and aura, you should 'improvise', beside only Sun exposure (even if it's not so strong; even in Winter), is VERY helpful for depression...3. Stay GOOD thinking- YOU ARE, WHAT YOU THINK- remember this, because it is very important!!!!4. Search for our High Priests posts; for example last HP Hooded Cobra's post "Masters among slaves"- very uplifting.., but you'll find much more precious posts on JoS, not only by High Prists.5. Make a Ritual for Father Satan asking for help if there is really bad..but it is extreme solution- NEVER misuse Him!
Good luck..
Ave Satan!

 

[shekel.stein]

Hi, you can do a binding ritual to end your abusive relationship:
https://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic18259.html
It is for Xians/Christians, but it can work on your partner
Also, NEVER stop meditating.
Pile layers upon layers of protection so that you have a solid foundation to work on :
https://josministries.prophpbb.com/topic10007.html

You also need to clean your aura everyday with the mantra : AUM SURYAE x 108 ( 108 times, as the number 108 is a number of power)
For energy, you can do a mars square so you can have full energy everyday:

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... uares.html

http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... quare.html

 

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@L W It's a long, long story. I am of age to leave this house and I technically could just leave the relationship, but if I did I'd have nowhere to go and no resources. I'm getting a job and getting really rooted in my area first so I can be independent financially and in every other way. I've had a long history of abuse, mostly in childhood, and this relationship isn't nearly as bad as previous abuse, so I can stick it out for awhile longer. And I think you're right about overexertion, although I tend to overexert myself mentally by being too hard on myself. That's been improving a lot recently thanks to this group and, most of all, Father Satan Himself.
@... Thank you that helps a lot. Oh, I'll never stop meditating. Through it all I haven't and I never intend to. Besides, I enjoy meditation wayyyy too much to stop.
@kojot14@... I'll definitely have these things in mind! Thanks so much for all of this.
Hail Father Satan!!

 

[oxaroc]

Use WUNJO rune to banish you depression.

Lydia has posted a guide about this; 
https://groups.yahoo.com/neo/groups/Joy ... ics/176994

Good luck.

HAIL SATAN!!!!