Hello People, I have something strange to share... Even still it's hard for me to believe.
On August 18th, Full Moon I thought of taking a leap of faith and dedicate myself to Satan.
My wife is a bit naggy, so before I went to sleep (I had a small bottle of white wine that night), I prayed to Satan or whoever is the real God and whatever his name is...
I told him that I'll take a leap of faith and now it's up to him to show me something, a sign or something.
I dozed of to sleep.
Now, my dedication was true and from the heart, although I didn't observe any formalities as its not in my nature. I one of those take it easy kind of people in the world.
Well, a couple of days later around 23rd,I tried to Meditate and saw blue and violet flashes while in a middle state of trance, ie I could partially feel my body.
Then, since then, I've noticed a constant decrease in my will power and focus.
I don't feel like going to the Gym (although I'm a regular) or take control of my diet (I ate mostly high caloried junk). I haven't been able to Meditate and when I try, I fail miserably.
My car Tyre busted and for almost a week I kept shuttling up and down for no genuine reason to get it fixed. No matter what, I couldn't get it done. I had pain in my knees and what not.
I'm now waiting for the nearest full moon or before to restart everything again.
The thing is, am I being attacked? If yes, how and why? People don't even know me. How the F am I targeted? And for what?
Please provide your valuable inputs.
Hail Satan, Satyam Shivam Sundaram