Confused about my Deeds

[Samantha1]

Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Let me tell you something, you can have instant happiness. What people are confused about is they think happiness only comes when you do certain things. Not at all, it's completely something you cause to yourself by your own will and has nothing to do with the external environment. Think of a moment when you were happy and of a happy case in your life. Imagine yourself being worse and think of people who are in a worse situation than you and feel how good it feels to be in your case. Now I've made you happy, if you brought these mental images to your mind
You may tell me "WTF you aren't serious"? I am, just follow this and it's guaranteed to change your mood and make you happy. The same when you are sad, it's because your brain focuses on negative things, you slump your shoulders and breathe shallow and you create this feeling of sadness. Just acknowledge that you doing it to yourself without wanting it and stop it and it'll be gone. Don't say "I'm sad", but see the situation for what it is, that your brain is running the "sadness" software again without your consent. That's it!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Samantha" <samy_walia@... wrote:

Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

 

[the_fire_starter666]

Serious typo here LOL. "Imagine yourself being worse". I obviously meant to say "better".

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

Let me tell you something, you can have instant happiness. What people are confused about is they think happiness only comes when you do certain things. Not at all, it's completely something you cause to yourself by your own will and has nothing to do with the external environment. Think of a moment when you were happy and of a happy case in your life. Imagine yourself being worse and think of people who are in a worse situation than you and feel how good it feels to be in your case. Now I've made you happy, if you brought these mental images to your mind
You may tell me "WTF you aren't serious"? I am, just follow this and it's guaranteed to change your mood and make you happy. The same when you are sad, it's because your brain focuses on negative things, you slump your shoulders and breathe shallow and you create this feeling of sadness. Just acknowledge that you doing it to yourself without wanting it and stop it and it'll be gone. Don't say "I'm sad", but see the situation for what it is, that your brain is running the "sadness" software again without your consent. That's it!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Samantha" <samy_walia@ wrote:

Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

 

[hailourtruegod1]

theres nothing to worry about. i believe our god is a loving and caring god. he should see past your past mistakes. you cant be blaimed for your ignorance and the trash that has been going thru our ears since we practically wore born. but now you have learned some of the real truth. if you do decide to do the dedication ritual then try to prove to father that you are worthy. you can do this by empowering yourself everyday(father Satan wants us to empower ourselves and complete his unfinished work of us reaching godhood) and being involved in the spiritual warfare. pretty much anything that you can do to make him happy (within your ability of course) he will surely accept. you can even ask your GD (after your dedication) what you can do to help. there are many things we can do for father. as long as you completely let father in and follow the correct path and never turn your back to him everything is going to be ok.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

Serious typo here LOL. "Imagine yourself being worse". I obviously meant to say "better".

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@ wrote:

Let me tell you something, you can have instant happiness. What people are confused about is they think happiness only comes when you do certain things. Not at all, it's completely something you cause to yourself by your own will and has nothing to do with the external environment. Think of a moment when you were happy and of a happy case in your life. Imagine yourself being worse and think of people who are in a worse situation than you and feel how good it feels to be in your case. Now I've made you happy, if you brought these mental images to your mind
You may tell me "WTF you aren't serious"? I am, just follow this and it's guaranteed to change your mood and make you happy. The same when you are sad, it's because your brain focuses on negative things, you slump your shoulders and breathe shallow and you create this feeling of sadness. Just acknowledge that you doing it to yourself without wanting it and stop it and it'll be gone. Don't say "I'm sad", but see the situation for what it is, that your brain is running the "sadness" software again without your consent. That's it!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Samantha" <samy_walia@ wrote:

Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Not sure it matters how we got here only that we did and we learned the truth about Satan.


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From: Samantha <samy_walia@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Confused about my Deeds
Sent: Sun, Sep 9, 2012 11:54:30 AM

<td val[/IMG]   Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

[/TD]

 

[Andrew Chiteme]

Father Satan is understanding,loving and caring. some of us know how had it is to leave xianity junk when it is embedded in you since childhood. and Father Satan and the Gods of Hell know and understand. this is y Father Satan is willing to reveal the truth to us;he cares and doesn't want us to be doomed like the Xians. dedicate your soul to him and begin empowering your soul to full enlightenment. HAIL SATAN




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On Mon, Sep 10, 2012 09:23 BST hailourtruegod wrote:

theres nothing to worry about. i believe our god is a loving and caring god. he should see past your past mistakes. you cant be blaimed for your ignorance and the trash that has been going thru our ears since we practically wore born. but now you have learned some of the real truth. if you do decide to do the dedication ritual then try to prove to father that you are worthy. you can do this by empowering yourself everyday(father Satan wants us to empower ourselves and complete his unfinished work of us reaching godhood) and being involved in the spiritual warfare. pretty much anything that you can do to make him happy (within your ability of course) he will surely accept. you can even ask your GD (after your dedication) what you can do to help. there are many things we can do for father. as long as you completely let father in and follow the correct path and never turn your back to him everything is going to be ok.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@... wrote:

Serious typo here LOL. "Imagine yourself being worse". I obviously meant to say "better".

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "the_fire_starter666" <the_fire_starter666@ wrote:

Let me tell you something, you can have instant happiness. What people are confused about is they think happiness only comes when you do certain things. Not at all, it's completely something you cause to yourself by your own will and has nothing to do with the external environment. Think of a moment when you were happy and of a happy case in your life. Imagine yourself being worse and think of people who are in a worse situation than you and feel how good it feels to be in your case. Now I've made you happy, if you brought these mental images to your mind
You may tell me "WTF you aren't serious"? I am, just follow this and it's guaranteed to change your mood and make you happy. The same when you are sad, it's because your brain focuses on negative things, you slump your shoulders and breathe shallow and you create this feeling of sadness. Just acknowledge that you doing it to yourself without wanting it and stop it and it'll be gone. Don't say "I'm sad", but see the situation for what it is, that your brain is running the "sadness" software again without your consent. That's it!!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Samantha" <samy_walia@ wrote:

Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

 

[Brian Gibbons]

<td val[/IMG]Beats the fuck out of that positive thinking garbage.You are right on again.Its the awareness of what you thinking and controling it.Plus its reprogramming our mind.


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From: the_fire_starter666 <the_fire_starter666@...;
To: <[email protected];
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Confused about my Deeds
Sent: Mon, Sep 10, 2012 6:39:10 AM

<td val[/IMG]   Let me tell you something, you can have instant happiness. What people are confused about is they think happiness only comes when you do certain things. Not at all, it's completely something you cause to yourself by your own will and has nothing to do with the external environment. Think of a moment when you were happy and of a happy case in your life. Imagine yourself being worse and think of people who are in a worse situation than you and feel how good it feels to be in your case. Now I've made you happy, if you brought these mental images to your mind
You may tell me "WTF you aren't serious"? I am, just follow this and it's guaranteed to change your mood and make you happy. The same when you are sad, it's because your brain focuses on negative things, you slump your shoulders and breathe shallow and you create this feeling of sadness. Just acknowledge that you doing it to yourself without wanting it and stop it and it'll be gone. Don't say "I'm sad", but see the situation for what it is, that your brain is running the "sadness" software again without your consent. That's it!!

--- [/IMG][email protected], "Samantha" <samy_walia@... wrote:

Hello brothers and sisters I have noticed that many a time its has been said that Satanism is NOT about asking Satan for favors like a genie.

Ever since I was small, all I heard about Satan were horrible things. Blood, lies, eternal torture in a lake of fire with sulfur pouring on me. I must say when it was all very traumatic and scary for a little girl! I even remember the times when some elder would sit me down and tell me about heaven and hell and about Gods wrath. I was told that the Anti-Christ(they meant Satanists I think) would come and torture my family in order to make me forsake God. That they would cut off their limbs and pluck out their eyes infront of me. And that only if I still worship God would my soul be saved. Now you can imagine what kind of men tal trauma I went through. I used to shake and tremble and silently cry in fear. Everytime I broke an xtian law my heart would sink in the fear of hell and Lucifer.

However as the years went I noticed that even though I prayed nothing happened. It was like praying to a rock! I started losing my faith. I was lost. I didn't know what to believe in. I felt so alone and useless. Untill finally one day I said FUCK IT!

Suddenly I didn't care about heaven or hell, God or Lucifer. I heard about people selling their souls to the Devil and getting what they wanted. I was so miserable that I didn't care about the consequences. I decided to strike a deal with the Devil.
Even though what I just typed was so insulting to Satan I don't regret it, because it was what brought me to true Satanism. I was browsing on how to strike a deal when I came across the JOS page.

I was numb after reading it. Never ever in my life did I come across something that made so much sense to me. It made me see Satan in a whole new light. He doesn't give favors for souls, He helps us empower our souls to achieve what we want ourselves. I started to look up at him not as a monster anymore, but as a being that actually cares about us. I felt so bad for my motives. I no longer wanted just to strike some deal with Him, I wanted to BOND with Him, learn more about Him and support Him in any way I can.

Well that is how I came to Spiritual Satanism. The more I read, the more determined I was that this was the place for me. I no longer feel lost. Even though its been just a short while I feel a little relaxed sometimes, not as stressed as I used to be. Like somewhere out there someone is taking care of me. And now I want to dedicate my soul. But what frightens me now is that....will He accept me? Yes my motives at first was just to get happiness out of my hollow life, but now its so much more than that! I was wrong but my eyes have been opened now. Will He forgive me for wronging Him and accept me into his family?

[/TD]

 

[TKF1]

Well Sister This Is Why You Went Offline?
Hail Satan

 

[Samantha Walia]

You know you don't belong here. So how about leaving and doing us both a favour?
From: TKF <tkfdevil@...
To: [email protected]
Sent: Wednesday, September 12, 2012 3:36 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Confused about my Deeds

 

Well Sister This Is Why You Went Offline?
Hail Satan

 

[the_fire_starter666]

What's with all these trolls lately? They seem obsessed.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Samantha Walia <samy_walia@... wrote:

You know you don't belong here. So how about leaving and doing us both a favour?


________________________________
From: TKF <tkfdevil@...
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Wednesday, September 12, 2012 3:36 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Confused about my Deeds


 


Well Sister This Is Why You Went Offline?
Hail Satan