utsubsisto2
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- Feb 5, 2005
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at specific times of the day, i feel as though my anger is "incited".i can be fine by myself, then randomly i'll feel as though as im irritated and dont have a higher understanding as to why i feel the way i feel.usually when someone is around , i link that person to how im feeling. so when i feel this False sense of negativity, i grit my teeth because i know truthfully its not how IM feeling.in Example, this weekend i got into a Fight with my girlfriend, things were getting Hot.and in a sense of Hot, i mean there was Danger around the corner and things were only elevating.i was trying so Hard to explain to my girlfriend that we were being attacked and that the thingshappening before our eyes were NOT coming from us . as i was trying to decrease the activity in our behavior,my brothers who both happen to be Satanists came from their room and into the living room.at this time, i have my girlfriend to my right with my brothers to my left. both of them were telling meThis isnt how Satanists do it, and that im making satan's people look bad. at That, i understood clearlybecause i know that's true. however, i was being attacked so hard that my own brother had attacked me during my argument with my girlfriend. my girlfriend left the house, and as this was going on i could feelmy other brother in defense mode about to swing on me at any time. to make a long story short,i had tried to explain to my brother that we were being attacked by the enemy, (with it being said that all 4 of us are satanists)and his response was that "im not strong enough to be on the enemy's radar, i myself as a satanist dont have the powercapable of being a threat to the enemy". in my opinion, if you're a Dedicated devout satanist and Spend all of your time Raising your energies for Father Satan, YES you Are a threat, and Will be seen by the enemy . Aside from that, i know it's wrongto fight with fellow satanists, and i feel wrong on behalf of the fact that things Elevated so highly . i had apologized to Father Satan,and i was told not to let my brothers get into the way of my affairs . i understand that, but i still feel bad on behalf of the fact that all of us as a whole were Literally Shook. and i feel as though the Enemy is responsible. i'm Doing the RTR's as i Go, i'm just trying to do thethings i know will make Satan proud, although i feel as though i let him down for fighting/arguing with my fellow spiritual brothers/sisters.please shed some light on this subject, im not too sure how to go about this. i feel as though i could get kicked out. i overheard my younger brother talking to my other brother about using another magician to knock one off, and im just thinking Woah... where is my mind at ?Hail Satan,- DarkMagick6