HailVictory88
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- Joined
- Sep 22, 2017
- Messages
- 497
For a while I haven't been making many threads, I realized what I had to do to fix some problems and have been doing a decent job at that. After a slump of not doing a lot I've been significantly ramping up what I do and have also tackled some previous bad habits, I have completely quit smoking and drinking alcohol, have begun to reduce my caffeine usage (a huge thanks to Blitzkrieg who recommended that another user avoid caffeine use in the mornings, I have begun doing this and it gives me better energy, reduced anxiety, and helps me gradually reduce overall intake) and have begun to cut back on other less than ideal habits such as excessive Internet browsing and porn. I am pretty good now about regularly doing warfare each day (I don't mean to brag but wanted to provide the context I'm working with, also, we're not Xians, nothing wrong with being proud of genuine progress).
One issue I have noticed is that I seem to differ a lot with other users here, I struggle with burnout with regards to fighting the enemy a lot. I don't mean to complain, I'm extremely grateful for the knowledge in combatting the enemy the JoS has provided, it has given meaning to my life and the ability to do spiritual warfare itself is a tremendously important gift. Combatting the enemy was one of the main reasons I became a Satanist, and I have no regrets that I did that. But I do often feel burnout just pushing back everyday against the enemy knowing how evil they are. I know a fair amount about what the Jews do, but often it just makes me feel tired and depressed rather than motivated and energized to destroy them. I know my warfare is efficient and I'm proud of it, but I also know I could and should be doing more. After a day of working and having about half my income taken by taxes, I often just feel like distracting myself, overindulgence in entertainment and escapism is a trait I've struggled with a lot. Also, unlike a lot of people here, I often don't have a huge interest in spirituality for its own sake. I'm very interested in the idea of becoming the best warrior I can be, but other than that I am not motivated to do a whole lot. I tend to live in my own head and lack interest in the external world. It's just full of unbelievably evil creatures and I sometimes feel like giving up, I have no intention of harming myself but often mentally play with this thought as a coping mechanism.
I guess my main questions boil down to 1) how can I keep myself from getting demoralized in this world infested by psychopathy, unbelievably evil Jews who want me dead?
2) How can I consistently increase my discipline so that I improve as a warrior?
3) How can I try and find some meaning and form some goals in this world?
One issue I have noticed is that I seem to differ a lot with other users here, I struggle with burnout with regards to fighting the enemy a lot. I don't mean to complain, I'm extremely grateful for the knowledge in combatting the enemy the JoS has provided, it has given meaning to my life and the ability to do spiritual warfare itself is a tremendously important gift. Combatting the enemy was one of the main reasons I became a Satanist, and I have no regrets that I did that. But I do often feel burnout just pushing back everyday against the enemy knowing how evil they are. I know a fair amount about what the Jews do, but often it just makes me feel tired and depressed rather than motivated and energized to destroy them. I know my warfare is efficient and I'm proud of it, but I also know I could and should be doing more. After a day of working and having about half my income taken by taxes, I often just feel like distracting myself, overindulgence in entertainment and escapism is a trait I've struggled with a lot. Also, unlike a lot of people here, I often don't have a huge interest in spirituality for its own sake. I'm very interested in the idea of becoming the best warrior I can be, but other than that I am not motivated to do a whole lot. I tend to live in my own head and lack interest in the external world. It's just full of unbelievably evil creatures and I sometimes feel like giving up, I have no intention of harming myself but often mentally play with this thought as a coping mechanism.
I guess my main questions boil down to 1) how can I keep myself from getting demoralized in this world infested by psychopathy, unbelievably evil Jews who want me dead?
2) How can I consistently increase my discipline so that I improve as a warrior?
3) How can I try and find some meaning and form some goals in this world?