Ambigous ancestry and problems of past life christian ties

[theop.chipyx]

Heil to all of you , Satanic Warriors! (This is a long one) I've been in much trouble lately and many of it caused by my spounge like energetical behaviour. It seems like I can't go one single day at ease without finding myself (my front part aura,heart chakra and third eye) in a dirty grey cloud of xtian energy + hallucinations about the mr.jew on a cross. Wherever I go there's allways something of xtian reference and I'm just sick as fuck of encountering it. Though I live now in a pitty little town of italy and , you know guys...fking xtian compulsion is everywhere in those kind of places,especially here in italy ,and also the population is highly affected by it , from my own experience here I found the dumbest among dumbest of people , and I'm afraid as fuck becoming like them because of my empathy. What can I tell you, I've tried to meditate and delete all of the shitty ties but , I found personally that in order to do it with calm and without losing myself I must connect or think about Satan , (about His figure , sensing His attitude , so powerfull , so perfectly rational and in the same time spiritual and rebellious) because it's like looking in a certain way, in a mirror , what I identify with , what my maximum aspirations are : a perfect arian , a perfect natural individual in touch with the "Adity" of Earth...But , as my fears linger around for some months ,everytime I'd like to get in touch while meditating , the doubt of worshiping Satan as xtian do with their shit on the stick  just fucks my vibe and I end up wondering if ever I had deep ties with that horrible shit. I hate it , and the only ideea makes me sick.But still, the facts are that my mother is partly gipsy (25 % so to speak , my grandfather was a half gipsy ,though a great man some have said) , my father has russian and polish ties , and everytime I look upon him and his father (my grandfather) I can see in him very clear jewish fisical atributes ,like the ears and general face configuration , adding so up to confusion and eventual predisposition to jewish/xtian ties. My guess is that at some point there was a jewish mother in his bloodline and she was polish.I am roumanian , and the genome of my natal place is mostly northen slavic type, but considering my ancestry I don't feel like the arian individual that I'd like to be, this discomforts me , and I know the enemies play a lot on these type of things...Now I'd like to see if anybody of you had similar experiences or if I'm the only one who's not sure about his ancestry.  The positive part is that while I'm writing here I feel nice and in deep conection with Satan. He never lets His warriors down.Heil SATANHeil TO THE EARTHHeil TO THE GODS