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I heard some time ago that there would be a 40 day program be released for people that are more spiritually inclined, any update on that?
Also,
I have found that I am able to handle an extreme amount of energy. I am not Psychicly open, and I realize that it takes time, but is there any way to expedite the process? You see.... I feel honestly useless right now. And I realize this is a common thing, and from the enemy, but I am getting discouraged because I feel useless. I KNOW I am capable of so much more. What I desire the most, is to grow at an extreme rate. A long time ago, I decided I would put my growth even over my physical comfort, and I've lived by that.
This has been my daily meditation for some time:AC, AP, VM
8 Yogic Humming Breaths
8 Complete Yogic Breath
Advanced Chakra Spin - 8 times the speed of light
Merkablah - 8 times the speed of light
13x 666 Breath of Lucifer's Grail (was shown this meditation somehow)
36 (going to bump it to 108 soon) vibrations of the specific corrected Sanskrit into each Chakra, including Pineal gland & Third Eye (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... uning.html -- the ones at the bottom of this page)
Then, I do the meditations for opening the Clairaudience & Clairvoyance Chakras (minor chakras?)
After this, I might do a King & Queen meditation, and the meditations for opening the Watchtowers.
Also, I do some Cobra Breaths, 4 of them
Then, Kundalini Yoga at night. (Hatha in the morning)
This is good and all, but my real question is, there has to be something I can do to open my Psychic senses? It's really, really, what I desire the most. I don't mean to sound bad, and I probably do, but I have never been able to accept anything spiritual without solid proof. I never dream in general, so I never have had a dream with Demons. By the way, why can't I ever dream? Anyone know anything about this? I will elaborate in the next paragraph ---- On top of that, I have never seen, or spoke to a Demon. I have asked Satan for a Succubus, however I know I haven't got one. Either that, or I just cant sense her. (It isn't a decision I thought of lightly. I would literally be happy with her for the rest of eternity. I broke off a VERY serious relationship just so I could be loyal to the Succubus) But the thing is, I will never be able to 100% believe that Satanism is real, unless I get solid proof, like seeing, or speaking with a demon. I feel dirty as shit for saying that, honestly, and I wish it was different, but that's my subconscious. I've never, never been able to accept anything without proof. And I've got nothing yet. And that also makes me feel bad regarding the Succubus, because I desire a Succubus with all of my heart. But the thing is, I've got nothing so far from her. And once again, how can I be dedicated without proof? My unconscious won't let me. I've tried what seems everything, and I really don't know what to do.
Regarding dreaming, I never think. And that may be the reason? Let me elaborate. You know void meditations, no thoughts? That is me 24/7. When I was young, I had EXTREME Insomnia. Whenever I tried to go to sleep, I had nothing but an extreme sense of dread, extreme paranoia, extremely scared, even though I had no reason. I had panic attacks, just trying to go to sleep. I thought something was going to get me. Nonstop thoughts in my head, nasty, nasty. So one day, I said to myself when I was trying to go to sleep, no more. From that day on, I silenced my brain. I would yell in my head "SHUT UP!!!" every time a thought would pop into my head. A few days passed, than weeks, and then it changed to me never thinking. Now, here I am, many many years later, and still, I honestly find it hard to think, speak in my head, because I never do it. It takes a lot of effort. Perhaps that is why I literally never dream?
I know this is a long post, but if any HPs, or any Advanced Satanists will be willing to lend a hand, I am willing to try anything, and I am willing to take any advice. My #1 goal is to open my Psychic senses. It means so much to me, it really does. But besides that... I want to know if I really have a Succubus or not. I have a Pendulum, however it seems to never really work. I don't really know how I can talk with my succubus, at all. Any ideas, anyone? That's a tricky one lol. Once again, I haven't had her show up in any dreams, but that's probably because of the paragraph directly above. I just need to know with all of my heart if I have a Demoness by my side. It means just as much. I guess my Psychic senses are just seriously damaged, lol.
Does anyone have some tips for how I could communicate with my Succubus without Scrying, using a Pendulum, or Psychic (like telepathic communication)? I've tried stuff like asking an impossible math question in my head and hearing if the thought would give me a correct answer, but never.
One of my biggest problems (don't overlook this paragraph) with telepathic communication, is the fact that I never think. How can I differentiate my thoughts from the thoughts of a Demon? They HAVE to sound different, in a way, don't they?? There has to be a way for sure, that I can be like, huh, that wasn't me saying that. Because half the time I just feel like I'm talking to myself and making a fool of myself. Could anyone give me tips on telepathic communications with demons in your response too? This is absolutely one of my biggest problems.
If someone could compile a list of meditations for me to help open my Psychic senses and advance myself, you would be my hero. I am literally willing to try anything, no matter how strenuous. As you can see from the list of meditations I do above, I'm no stranger to pushing myself and trying new things.There have been days when I've spent more than 6 hours meditating. I am 100% dedicated. And I want with all of my heart to advance. I've been doing everything I can, but I've got nothing, and it is discouraging me so much, because of the type of person I am.
That's it. I know this was a long post, and I hope you don't slam me for it. I just really, really need help. I don't know where else to turn. And I know I'm asking a lot, but I really just need some help. I know you probably get this all the time, but please put effort into a response. It's not going to be for nothing. I'm seriously going to take your advice to heart.
HAIL SATAN!
Also,
I have found that I am able to handle an extreme amount of energy. I am not Psychicly open, and I realize that it takes time, but is there any way to expedite the process? You see.... I feel honestly useless right now. And I realize this is a common thing, and from the enemy, but I am getting discouraged because I feel useless. I KNOW I am capable of so much more. What I desire the most, is to grow at an extreme rate. A long time ago, I decided I would put my growth even over my physical comfort, and I've lived by that.
This has been my daily meditation for some time:AC, AP, VM
8 Yogic Humming Breaths
8 Complete Yogic Breath
Advanced Chakra Spin - 8 times the speed of light
Merkablah - 8 times the speed of light
13x 666 Breath of Lucifer's Grail (was shown this meditation somehow)
36 (going to bump it to 108 soon) vibrations of the specific corrected Sanskrit into each Chakra, including Pineal gland & Third Eye (http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... uning.html -- the ones at the bottom of this page)
Then, I do the meditations for opening the Clairaudience & Clairvoyance Chakras (minor chakras?)
After this, I might do a King & Queen meditation, and the meditations for opening the Watchtowers.
Also, I do some Cobra Breaths, 4 of them
Then, Kundalini Yoga at night. (Hatha in the morning)
This is good and all, but my real question is, there has to be something I can do to open my Psychic senses? It's really, really, what I desire the most. I don't mean to sound bad, and I probably do, but I have never been able to accept anything spiritual without solid proof. I never dream in general, so I never have had a dream with Demons. By the way, why can't I ever dream? Anyone know anything about this? I will elaborate in the next paragraph ---- On top of that, I have never seen, or spoke to a Demon. I have asked Satan for a Succubus, however I know I haven't got one. Either that, or I just cant sense her. (It isn't a decision I thought of lightly. I would literally be happy with her for the rest of eternity. I broke off a VERY serious relationship just so I could be loyal to the Succubus) But the thing is, I will never be able to 100% believe that Satanism is real, unless I get solid proof, like seeing, or speaking with a demon. I feel dirty as shit for saying that, honestly, and I wish it was different, but that's my subconscious. I've never, never been able to accept anything without proof. And I've got nothing yet. And that also makes me feel bad regarding the Succubus, because I desire a Succubus with all of my heart. But the thing is, I've got nothing so far from her. And once again, how can I be dedicated without proof? My unconscious won't let me. I've tried what seems everything, and I really don't know what to do.
Regarding dreaming, I never think. And that may be the reason? Let me elaborate. You know void meditations, no thoughts? That is me 24/7. When I was young, I had EXTREME Insomnia. Whenever I tried to go to sleep, I had nothing but an extreme sense of dread, extreme paranoia, extremely scared, even though I had no reason. I had panic attacks, just trying to go to sleep. I thought something was going to get me. Nonstop thoughts in my head, nasty, nasty. So one day, I said to myself when I was trying to go to sleep, no more. From that day on, I silenced my brain. I would yell in my head "SHUT UP!!!" every time a thought would pop into my head. A few days passed, than weeks, and then it changed to me never thinking. Now, here I am, many many years later, and still, I honestly find it hard to think, speak in my head, because I never do it. It takes a lot of effort. Perhaps that is why I literally never dream?
I know this is a long post, but if any HPs, or any Advanced Satanists will be willing to lend a hand, I am willing to try anything, and I am willing to take any advice. My #1 goal is to open my Psychic senses. It means so much to me, it really does. But besides that... I want to know if I really have a Succubus or not. I have a Pendulum, however it seems to never really work. I don't really know how I can talk with my succubus, at all. Any ideas, anyone? That's a tricky one lol. Once again, I haven't had her show up in any dreams, but that's probably because of the paragraph directly above. I just need to know with all of my heart if I have a Demoness by my side. It means just as much. I guess my Psychic senses are just seriously damaged, lol.
Does anyone have some tips for how I could communicate with my Succubus without Scrying, using a Pendulum, or Psychic (like telepathic communication)? I've tried stuff like asking an impossible math question in my head and hearing if the thought would give me a correct answer, but never.
One of my biggest problems (don't overlook this paragraph) with telepathic communication, is the fact that I never think. How can I differentiate my thoughts from the thoughts of a Demon? They HAVE to sound different, in a way, don't they?? There has to be a way for sure, that I can be like, huh, that wasn't me saying that. Because half the time I just feel like I'm talking to myself and making a fool of myself. Could anyone give me tips on telepathic communications with demons in your response too? This is absolutely one of my biggest problems.
If someone could compile a list of meditations for me to help open my Psychic senses and advance myself, you would be my hero. I am literally willing to try anything, no matter how strenuous. As you can see from the list of meditations I do above, I'm no stranger to pushing myself and trying new things.There have been days when I've spent more than 6 hours meditating. I am 100% dedicated. And I want with all of my heart to advance. I've been doing everything I can, but I've got nothing, and it is discouraging me so much, because of the type of person I am.
That's it. I know this was a long post, and I hope you don't slam me for it. I just really, really need help. I don't know where else to turn. And I know I'm asking a lot, but I really just need some help. I know you probably get this all the time, but please put effort into a response. It's not going to be for nothing. I'm seriously going to take your advice to heart.
HAIL SATAN!
