Hello, Brothers and Sisters!
For a quick introduction of myself:
I am a 20 year-old male, I'm an ESL (English as a second language) teacher and have been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years now.
I am not a regular poster here, mainly due to being more used to Gmail than Yahoo.
But I've been reading the group messages from my Gmail inbox for a long time now and I've posted here at least twice before. The first time was about having done my dedication ritual.
Now, my last post (late November, early December 2014) was about a personal issue I have experienced in the end of last year:
conversations/messages/124953
I put the link here just for confirmation purposes, but to save you guys the time here goes a summary of it:
I had been in a relationship with a 15 year-old girl for six months (which most of you may identify as illegal but I want to make clear that in my country, the age of consent is 14 so it was not illegal at all; plus I never did anything against her will). Her grandmother (whom she lived with) was a strict xian and had a hard time accepting this relationship but ended up accepting it and so did her father.
During the time I was with her, I have talked to her about the path of Spiritual Satanism and she seemed all interested about it. She told me she wanted to dedicate and apparently did it. From then on, I have taught her everything I knew.
Since the early stages of our relationship, I had known her grandmother and some of her other relatives to be abusive towards her (or so she made it seem). So one day in the end of that year we had a conversation about cursing her grandmother with grey energy. Her father, who had taken her cell phone from her and spied on it, had seen those messages. On the next day he set up a trap in which she took part by calling me on the phone, saying she was alone at home and asking me to come over. As I was worried because they had taken her cell phone from her the day before, I fell for it. I went there and when I got in, he was there and beat me. As I was blinded by that girl, I did not fight back physically like I should have. I've made the mistake of putting her before my honor and did not want to lose the chance of seeing her every weekend, which I know would happen if I fought back. So I remained hoping for a "more pacific" way out of that situation.
By the time I wrote that post I was too blinded to realize that she had betrayed me and I asked you guys for help as to what I could do spiritually to fight back and to not 'lose' her.
I have made many dumb decisions for her, like quitting my previous job and letting go of my female friends because of her insane jealousy and taking this relationship to that extent was probably the biggest mistake I've made in my life and not a bit worth it.
Now after having recalled this misfortune, let me get to what matters.
I'm writing this post as to give a feedback on the aftermath of all of this and the progress I've been making since then.
Well, I had my ways of keeping in contact with her online and we both had agreed to continue our relationship even though we couldn't see each other for a while. The week following what happened I cursed her father every single day. I eventually heard from her that he had fallen off the stairs and severely damaged his spine. He was kept away from his job for 4 days.
Less than two weeks later I found out that she had been cheating on me. And although I know I should have known way before that I could not trust her, this is what it took for me to open my eyes and let her go. As I expected anything from her but this it was devastating for me and has left me sleepless, unable to concentrate on my daily meditations, with no appetite and made me wanna puke. I kept in touch with her for a short while because after the argument I had with her over this, she wanted to make piece and make up. As emotionally weak as I was, I kept talking to her and proposed a "if you change" kind of deal but (gladly) never really made up with her again. I cut all contact with her when she revealed she had secretly moved on with another guy. And this is the end of this soap opera-like story.
I have suspicions that she had jewish blood because she'd often lie right to my face like a pro, she lied to me once and prior to discovering that she was lying, she dared swearing what she was saying in the name of Satan and during the short period of time she wanted to reconcile, she told me "I need to tell you something, I am by jesus' side now, would you still accept me?"
That brings into question for me whether she had really done the dedication ritual. The only thing that makes me believe she did it is having seen the pack of blue candles she apparently had bought to do the ritual. I know she was not mature and as such she would have a tendency to take stupid actions, but I also believe she was old enough to have at least some common sense and know what she's doing in regards to her jewish-like attitude.
As for me, I have been making good progress since I cut her from my life.
The day after I cut contact with her I got a new job in another school after 3 months being unemployed.
That was good to give me the money I needed to do my stuff, but it was a jewish company which made me work 10 hours a day even on Saturdays leaving me no time to focus on daily meditation, didn't offer a fair salary and I didn't stay there for long. After 3 and a half months they fired me for complaining about their abusive shift.
After that, I was able to focus on meditating daily once again, and this has been bringing me wonders! With the money from my rescission I was able to do my car exam one second time (I have failed on the 1st try), asked Satan to help me pass this time and finally passed and got my license!
A few weeks later, I got a job interview in a new school and was lucky enough to be one of the two candidates who were admitted among four strong candidates! And this is where I'm currently working. I've been teaching there for one and a half months now and it is the best job I've ever had and I'm more than happy with it. They pay a fair salary, my shift is only three hours a day from Monday to Friday and they even have a meditation room in the school, which my coordinator told me all coworkers can use.
Now tell me if that's not a present from Father Satan for me to be happy with my job and at the same time have no excuses to not meditate everyday!!!
Since I dedicated, I've had ups and downs with consistent meditation.
I've had periods of time when I meditated everyday and periods of time when I didn't meditate at all.
The first time I had an everyday meditation schedule was when I started High Priest Hooded cobra's 40 day meditation program, which I couldn't complete because prior to starting the chakra opening exercises I got a viral disease which forced me to stop.
I got better but then I met this 24 year-old girlfriend I had before the girl mentioned in this post, who demanded like 22 hours of my attention. Yes I admit, my attention was that vulnerable to women.
Then I got back to meditating daily when I met the girl mentioned in this post, and then as I explained I stopped when I found out she cheated on me.
The farthest I've gotten so far was having activated my third eye and, if that counts, accidentally (and temporarily) having opened my clairvoyance only on my left ear (which was a rather scary experience back then)
I know I could be way more advanced by now, having been dedicated for 2 years. But I'm happy with the progress I've been making. I've been meditating everyday and doing rune curses against the jews everyday as well. I've also been studying on how to time workings with the signs of the moon since a recent post by Hooded Cobra has brought this to my attention. And I'll be aiming to successfully open all of my chakras and activate my astral senses.
This time nothing will stop me and nothing will distract me from my spiritual progress.
I've recently deleted my Facebook account.
And now I don't even want to bother about "love relationships" again any time soon!
I'd like to thank everyone who had replied to my previous post and to apologize for having been stupid and not having realized how blinded I was.
And most importantly to thank Father Satan for leading me in the right direction.
And to finish this post, I have a question.
I intend to start posting here with more frequency as I have a couple ideas to help people understand some meditation disciplines a lot of people have a hard time with, and I have a couple of questions about certain topics as well.
But I'd like to make it practical, so...can I post/reply to topics here directly from my Gmail inbox? Or do I always have to log in to Yahoo?
And if that's the case, do you guys know if there is a Yahoo app for Android? As I use my cell phone more frequently than my computer to access the internet, that would make it easier.
And sorry guys if this post is too long.
HAIL SATAN!!!
For a quick introduction of myself:
I am a 20 year-old male, I'm an ESL (English as a second language) teacher and have been a dedicated Satanist for 2 years now.
I am not a regular poster here, mainly due to being more used to Gmail than Yahoo.
But I've been reading the group messages from my Gmail inbox for a long time now and I've posted here at least twice before. The first time was about having done my dedication ritual.
Now, my last post (late November, early December 2014) was about a personal issue I have experienced in the end of last year:
conversations/messages/124953
I put the link here just for confirmation purposes, but to save you guys the time here goes a summary of it:
I had been in a relationship with a 15 year-old girl for six months (which most of you may identify as illegal but I want to make clear that in my country, the age of consent is 14 so it was not illegal at all; plus I never did anything against her will). Her grandmother (whom she lived with) was a strict xian and had a hard time accepting this relationship but ended up accepting it and so did her father.
During the time I was with her, I have talked to her about the path of Spiritual Satanism and she seemed all interested about it. She told me she wanted to dedicate and apparently did it. From then on, I have taught her everything I knew.
Since the early stages of our relationship, I had known her grandmother and some of her other relatives to be abusive towards her (or so she made it seem). So one day in the end of that year we had a conversation about cursing her grandmother with grey energy. Her father, who had taken her cell phone from her and spied on it, had seen those messages. On the next day he set up a trap in which she took part by calling me on the phone, saying she was alone at home and asking me to come over. As I was worried because they had taken her cell phone from her the day before, I fell for it. I went there and when I got in, he was there and beat me. As I was blinded by that girl, I did not fight back physically like I should have. I've made the mistake of putting her before my honor and did not want to lose the chance of seeing her every weekend, which I know would happen if I fought back. So I remained hoping for a "more pacific" way out of that situation.
By the time I wrote that post I was too blinded to realize that she had betrayed me and I asked you guys for help as to what I could do spiritually to fight back and to not 'lose' her.
I have made many dumb decisions for her, like quitting my previous job and letting go of my female friends because of her insane jealousy and taking this relationship to that extent was probably the biggest mistake I've made in my life and not a bit worth it.
Now after having recalled this misfortune, let me get to what matters.
I'm writing this post as to give a feedback on the aftermath of all of this and the progress I've been making since then.
Well, I had my ways of keeping in contact with her online and we both had agreed to continue our relationship even though we couldn't see each other for a while. The week following what happened I cursed her father every single day. I eventually heard from her that he had fallen off the stairs and severely damaged his spine. He was kept away from his job for 4 days.
Less than two weeks later I found out that she had been cheating on me. And although I know I should have known way before that I could not trust her, this is what it took for me to open my eyes and let her go. As I expected anything from her but this it was devastating for me and has left me sleepless, unable to concentrate on my daily meditations, with no appetite and made me wanna puke. I kept in touch with her for a short while because after the argument I had with her over this, she wanted to make piece and make up. As emotionally weak as I was, I kept talking to her and proposed a "if you change" kind of deal but (gladly) never really made up with her again. I cut all contact with her when she revealed she had secretly moved on with another guy. And this is the end of this soap opera-like story.
I have suspicions that she had jewish blood because she'd often lie right to my face like a pro, she lied to me once and prior to discovering that she was lying, she dared swearing what she was saying in the name of Satan and during the short period of time she wanted to reconcile, she told me "I need to tell you something, I am by jesus' side now, would you still accept me?"
That brings into question for me whether she had really done the dedication ritual. The only thing that makes me believe she did it is having seen the pack of blue candles she apparently had bought to do the ritual. I know she was not mature and as such she would have a tendency to take stupid actions, but I also believe she was old enough to have at least some common sense and know what she's doing in regards to her jewish-like attitude.
As for me, I have been making good progress since I cut her from my life.
The day after I cut contact with her I got a new job in another school after 3 months being unemployed.
That was good to give me the money I needed to do my stuff, but it was a jewish company which made me work 10 hours a day even on Saturdays leaving me no time to focus on daily meditation, didn't offer a fair salary and I didn't stay there for long. After 3 and a half months they fired me for complaining about their abusive shift.
After that, I was able to focus on meditating daily once again, and this has been bringing me wonders! With the money from my rescission I was able to do my car exam one second time (I have failed on the 1st try), asked Satan to help me pass this time and finally passed and got my license!
A few weeks later, I got a job interview in a new school and was lucky enough to be one of the two candidates who were admitted among four strong candidates! And this is where I'm currently working. I've been teaching there for one and a half months now and it is the best job I've ever had and I'm more than happy with it. They pay a fair salary, my shift is only three hours a day from Monday to Friday and they even have a meditation room in the school, which my coordinator told me all coworkers can use.
Now tell me if that's not a present from Father Satan for me to be happy with my job and at the same time have no excuses to not meditate everyday!!!
Since I dedicated, I've had ups and downs with consistent meditation.
I've had periods of time when I meditated everyday and periods of time when I didn't meditate at all.
The first time I had an everyday meditation schedule was when I started High Priest Hooded cobra's 40 day meditation program, which I couldn't complete because prior to starting the chakra opening exercises I got a viral disease which forced me to stop.
I got better but then I met this 24 year-old girlfriend I had before the girl mentioned in this post, who demanded like 22 hours of my attention. Yes I admit, my attention was that vulnerable to women.
Then I got back to meditating daily when I met the girl mentioned in this post, and then as I explained I stopped when I found out she cheated on me.
The farthest I've gotten so far was having activated my third eye and, if that counts, accidentally (and temporarily) having opened my clairvoyance only on my left ear (which was a rather scary experience back then)
I know I could be way more advanced by now, having been dedicated for 2 years. But I'm happy with the progress I've been making. I've been meditating everyday and doing rune curses against the jews everyday as well. I've also been studying on how to time workings with the signs of the moon since a recent post by Hooded Cobra has brought this to my attention. And I'll be aiming to successfully open all of my chakras and activate my astral senses.
This time nothing will stop me and nothing will distract me from my spiritual progress.
I've recently deleted my Facebook account.
And now I don't even want to bother about "love relationships" again any time soon!
I'd like to thank everyone who had replied to my previous post and to apologize for having been stupid and not having realized how blinded I was.
And most importantly to thank Father Satan for leading me in the right direction.
And to finish this post, I have a question.
I intend to start posting here with more frequency as I have a couple ideas to help people understand some meditation disciplines a lot of people have a hard time with, and I have a couple of questions about certain topics as well.
But I'd like to make it practical, so...can I post/reply to topics here directly from my Gmail inbox? Or do I always have to log in to Yahoo?
And if that's the case, do you guys know if there is a Yahoo app for Android? As I use my cell phone more frequently than my computer to access the internet, that would make it easier.
And sorry guys if this post is too long.
HAIL SATAN!!!
