Meditations #78960 Am I Yehuborim? Spiritual problems

[Ask Satya Operator]

I was born in European white family. My whole family are atheists and I have never had any problems with xianity and other garbage, I have never been to church. I first learned about Spiritual Satanism in 2021 when I was 15. After studying the entire site, I almost immediately started meditating, starting a 40-day program. I did not do a soul dedication ritual, but simply experimented with meditations and felt pretty good, I clearly remember that time. Meditations from the 40-day program were easy and effortless. But then I gave up due to lack of time and great efforts to study at school.
I returned to meditation in August 2022, then I did a dedication ritual and started meditating again. Since then, some strange things and problems began, my life did not improve at all. Since October of the same year, I began to get sick, some panic attacks appeared that had never happened before, psychosomatic diseases, etc. Nothing serious really, but it had a strong effect on my psyche and almost drove me crazy. That same month I stopped meditating and my health problems went away on their own, as if they had never been there.
Then, after another six months, I returned to meditation again and started doing FRRT from time to time. Soon after that, my mother started getting sick, she had everything the same as me: undetectable diseases, panic attacks and anxiety. All the tests are normal and everything is fine, but the pain torments her in one organ or another and so on for quite a long time. It is probably worth clarifying that my mother has some Yehuborim-like features and curly hair. She looks Yehuborim to a small extent, but I'm not sure, besides, there were no Yehuborim in the family, according to my parents.
I returned to meditation seriously and thoroughly again in June 2025, devoting an hour to meditation and an hour and a half to yoga. And damn it, my mother started getting sick again. I did the Valefor ritual for two days, planning to do it for five days. But after the second time, literally a few hours after performing the ritual, my mother's condition worsened even more and sharply - a strong increase in blood pressure and a panic attack. I finally despaired and from that day on I stopped meditating, doing yoga and doing any rituals of the gods. My mother's health is improving and returning to normal and I can't fucking understand what the problem is. Why such coincidences? I don't consider myself a Yehubor at all, on the contrary, I want to have justice by any means, both spiritually and physically. BUT why, as soon as I start meditating and doing yoga or FRRT, does my mother's health begin to deteriorate sharply and unexpectedly? Why is everything fine when I don't meditate? What is the problem?

 

[Anemos Aiteros]

When one advance spiritually, one can receive spiritual attacks to oneself and people around.

You can re start meditation and join our Schedule.

If you want it, you can clean aura and chakras of your mother daily and also put on her an aura of protection.

I want to have justice by any means

Justice have a cost, this is a spiritual war.

For every other questions, feel free to ask.

 

[Recycler1337]

If no one in your family was directly involved in judaism and did not make curses for pagans - in the worst case, you would simply not feel any effect, would not receive any result, no answer from the gods, you would simply be completely ignored. I think these are just negative coincidences, this is my personal opinion.

 

[Soldier Of Light]

I was born in European white family. My whole family are atheists and I have never had any problems with xianity and other garbage, I have never been to church. I first learned about Spiritual Satanism in 2021 when I was 15. After studying the entire site, I almost immediately started meditating, starting a 40-day program. I did not do a soul dedication ritual, but simply experimented with meditations and felt pretty good, I clearly remember that time. Meditations from the 40-day program were easy and effortless. But then I gave up due to lack of time and great efforts to study at school.
I returned to meditation in August 2022, then I did a dedication ritual and started meditating again. Since then, some strange things and problems began, my life did not improve at all. Since October of the same year, I began to get sick, some panic attacks appeared that had never happened before, psychosomatic diseases, etc. Nothing serious really, but it had a strong effect on my psyche and almost drove me crazy. That same month I stopped meditating and my health problems went away on their own, as if they had never been there.
Then, after another six months, I returned to meditation again and started doing FRRT from time to time. Soon after that, my mother started getting sick, she had everything the same as me: undetectable diseases, panic attacks and anxiety. All the tests are normal and everything is fine, but the pain torments her in one organ or another and so on for quite a long time. It is probably worth clarifying that my mother has some Yehuborim-like features and curly hair. She looks Yehuborim to a small extent, but I'm not sure, besides, there were no Yehuborim in the family, according to my parents.
I returned to meditation seriously and thoroughly again in June 2025, devoting an hour to meditation and an hour and a half to yoga. And damn it, my mother started getting sick again. I did the Valefor ritual for two days, planning to do it for five days. But after the second time, literally a few hours after performing the ritual, my mother's condition worsened even more and sharply - a strong increase in blood pressure and a panic attack. I finally despaired and from that day on I stopped meditating, doing yoga and doing any rituals of the gods. My mother's health is improving and returning to normal and I can't fucking understand what the problem is. Why such coincidences? I don't consider myself a Yehubor at all, on the contrary, I want to have justice by any means, both spiritually and physically. BUT why, as soon as I start meditating and doing yoga or FRRT, does my mother's health begin to deteriorate sharply and unexpectedly? Why is everything fine when I don't meditate? What is the problem?

Some questions to consider: Did you make a schedule for preparing for spiritual warfare? And did you also do it for power meditations? When we are young, we are not adapted to a certain amount of energy, nor are we able to manage it correctly. When we are advancing, we become targets of enemy beings working to enslave us, so we must strengthen our aura and monitor our thoughts. Third point to keep in mind: we are constantly tested, especially when we are newly pact-bound. Our High Priestess Maxine (peace be upon her) has already mentioned this, and it is explicitly stated in the book dictated by Zeus/Satya itself.
“I place my affairs in the hands of those whom I have tried and who are in accord with my desires.”
This path requires discipline, awareness, and strength. And if you've been led down this path, it's highly unlikely that you're Yehuborim. Good luck, and stay strong on the path.