Sexuality #78916 Child Abuse [Trigger Warning: Sexual Trauma]

[AskSatanOperator]

Spoiler: [Trigger Warning: Sexual Trauma]

I am 17 years old,

I constantly see my mother as naked in my dreams. My first wet dream was with my mom. That really affects me because my sexual dreams mostly about with my mother.

I really get very affected after it, because I can't really understand what is the problem about "PERFORMING AN INCEST INTERCOURSE".
Once I understood this is a bad thing, but I saw a sexual dream with my mom again and start thinking what is the problem about "PERFORMING AN INCEST INTERCOURSE". I always think like: why is it not normal?

At 12 of my age, I even fantasize my mother for masturbation. I ONLY DID IT FOR ONCE. I have regretted it.

I really can't realize what is perversion.

But, the real problem is: Why do I live that problem? My mother is unnecessarily friendly about sexual jokes in our house. She really doesn't care, she speaks every sexual thing clearly, she used to touch my special areas as a "JOKE", when that shit continued until the age of 15, I just screamed out. That is bullshit.

So, maybe I got abused and that continued as dreams always? I don't know, when I was growing there was no problem. At the age of 12, shit happened.

 

[april]

Please try a freeing the soul (Ansuz) working with affirmations such as "I am healing from all sexual trauma and unnatural fetishes". I also recommend doing a Munka (negative karma cleansing) freeing the soul working since this may be tied to past life fetishes, trauma, and related. Other than this, please do HPS Lydia's workings for self-love and emotional healing, these help everyone heal in a balanced and thorough manner and bring more joy into people's lives. Please take care and stay safe, have a wonderful Sunday!