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Nestabil'nost' vo vsem, v oshchushcheniyakh ot meditatsiy v oshchushcheniyakh ot ritualov, v predskazaniyakh. V odin den' ya mogu sdelat' yogu, pochuvstvovat' effekt legkosti, poluchit' astral'noye prikosnovniye v otvet na vopros, nayti poteryannyy predmet s pomoshch'yu mayatnika, sdelat' ritual - oshchutiv yego silu, pomeditirovat' na sigilu - oshchushchaya prekrasnyye energii. No byvayet inache - byvayet chto yoga - slovno bessmyslennaya rutina ya ne chuvstvuyu nichego krome ustalosti, ne chuvtvuyu bukval'no nichego ot meditatsii na sigily, ot ritualov. Kak by ne staralsya - mayatnik ne mozhet otvetit' dazhe na prosteyshiye voprosy. A vmesto astral'nogo prikosnoveniya - slovno lopnuvshis' zudyashchiy sosud v pal'tse chto drebezhzhit na vse voprosy v 1 tochke, v etot den' ikh net. YA zanimayus' uzhe mnogo let, no v takiye periody ya chuvstvuyu chto mogu soyti s uma, vrode by ya byl na 100% uveren v tom, chem ya zanimayus' i vot - ya uzhe polnost'yu somnevayus' i gotov priznat' chto ya oshibsya v vybore tem, chem mne stoit zanimat'sya.
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Instability in everything, in sensations from meditations, in sensations from rituals, in predictions.

In one day I can do yoga, feel the effect of lightness, receive an astral touch in response to a question, find a lost object with the help of a pendulum, do a ritual - feeling its power, meditate on a sigil - feeling beautiful energies.

But it happens differently - it happens that yoga is like a meaningless routine, I feel nothing but fatigue, I feel literally nothing from meditation on sigils, from rituals.

No matter how hard I try - the pendulum cannot answer even the simplest questions.

And instead of an astral touch - as if an itchy vessel in the finger burst that rattles to all questions at 1 point, on this day they are not there.

I have been doing this for many years, but during such periods I feel like I can go crazy, it seems like I was 100% sure of what I was doing and now I am completely in doubt and ready to admit that I made a mistake in choosing what I should do.


Once I can just start doing the work and immediately see the results - which can simply disappear in the middle of it, for example - at the beginning of the square of the Sun, I was immediately offered a very profitable deal, literally fantastic, I was covered in goosebumps and felt like a powerful magician, by the middle of the square (I 100% did not make a single mistake, did not miss a day) - the deal fell through for a funny reason, I finished the square hoping that there would be something else, but nothing, silence. This is an example, other jobs are also unstable.

Sometimes, literally nonsense comes true - at night I imagined that I lived in a country house in a pine forest and for some reason imagined that the Internet there was bad - as a result, the whole next day, the damn Internet was bad for me.

As an example.

What can you advise me on how to stop being a schizo-magician as if I were cursed by chaos or something like that and become normal?
 
Greetings, what you need is consistency. It's better to meditate less everyday than to meditate a lot one day and not meditate at all the next. An imbalance in energies can affect your mood and even your day-to-day life.

As for the Sun square, you saw that an opportunity did arise, despite the fact that it eventually failed. Good, you can do another square. You can also locate any possible blockages that led to this initial failure.
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

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