Hey man. Sucks you got involved with that, at least you got out. Now those assholes are attacking you and wont stop. If you want something a little more basic to start with before the warfare training, I can give you a few links. There is a lot of info through the JOS website which is awesome...

I found your point about google searching "jew" coming up with that explanation page very interesting. Its interesting because i cant make any other searches come up with it as a result. I mean i tried using racial epithets, words like "christian" and "muslim", and all sorts of other searches i...

Good vibes being sent your way.

I don't know how else to explain it. Everything looks kinda fuzzy but like they are made of pixels. The pixels vibrate and kinda move in waves. I don't always notice it but when I'm just relaxing and casually looking around i do. It's been like that since i was a kid. Never thought anything of...

haha awesome, good job!

Its normal to want to be with like minded people. Humans are social creatures after all. I feel you on alot of what your putting up with. The me thats out and about in public is not who i am privately. If i have new people coming over my house, i usually have to hide the really incriminating...

You could try closing your chakras when in public. http://www.666blacksun.com/Closing_Chakras.html

maybe you could try to involve more of your senses. like if you were to try and visualize an apple, maybe thinking what one would taste like or smell like, while trying to visualize it, could help.

Yeah, there seems to be more negative shit going on more recently. At least from what i have seen from paying attention to what news comes out. Bad vibes man.

I listen to Trivium .....alot. They are pretty much my favorite metal band, at the moment. Catching up on some Five Finger Death Punch since the lead vocals used to be in one of my other favorite bands motograter. I like a lot of different kinds of music. From metal to classical. I like to...

You are going through a transitory period. You just realized that your base is weak and you should naturally not be comfortable with it. Use this discomfort as drive to change. One of the things that brought me to satanism is the focus on self improvement and seeking the truth. What could be a...

Awesome. Thanks for sharing your story. It is encouraging. Hail Satan!

Nice work. It looks good.

I agree with the others. Just cut ties. If you can't leave then just stop being present in her life for her complaints to have any legitimacy. If you are around for her to call the cops even for a bullshit reason it doesn't help your case. Go out, do something constructive, distract yourself...